This is a hard exercise....I don't really fear being thin, I'm super excited to not be a fat blob anymore.

So maybe I'll reverse the exercise---6 things I'm looking forward to:

1. I'm enjoying people saying things like 'Wow, you look great!' or 'You're losing weight aren't you?'
2. I'm also enjoying the double takes that guys are giving me now and really look forward to being a skinny minny and getting those looks.
3. I'm also noticing that my body feels better, my knee doesn't hurt anymore, I can walk up stairs without being winded, and I sleep better.
4. I can't wait to keep buying new and hip clothes. Fat clothes are so ugly.
5. No more fears about fitting in tight places.
6. Tons of energy.

Some fears:

1. Gaining it all back and then some!
2. Attracting the attention of ugly guys.
3. Being skinny and John still being fat. It's hard enough being in public with him b/c everyone stares and points but if I'm a tooth pick and he's a blob--I don't think I could handle it. It's embarrassing.
4. I guess I also fear giving up...it's freakin' hard sometimes and would just be so much easier to shove a burger down my throat.

Elegance: Here's what I'm doing about the clothes situation--because stylish clothes are super expensive--I take $40 out of every paycheck and hide it away so that when Spring comes and its time for me to buy a new wardrobe I'll have almost $500 saved up! I'm also asking for gift cards to Dress Barn and stuff for birthday/Christmas.

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