Hi Cathy,
I can totally relate to you. I remember when my kids were growing up, I used to feel that all the other moms looked down their noses at me. I live in a fairly affluent school district where three fourths of the moms were married to dr's and lawyers and went to the
gym four hours a day. I was a working mom, and between raising the kids, taking care of the house, working, and caring for my mom who was dying of cancer, I didn't have time to do the
gym thing and take care of me. Before I knew it, my kids were grown up and it really didn't matter anymore what the other moms thought. I'm especially close to my daughter and I asked her one day when we were planning her wedding if she was ever embarassed by me. She looked me right in the eyes and said "Mom, I wouldn't have had you any other way, cause I always knew you loved me." We hugged and I cried. Your kids love you. The inner you. If you need to lose the weight to be healthy, do it. If you just want to do it for yourself, do it. But you have to love yourself first. The rest of those moms just don't count. And anyhow, once your kids grow up, you'll find that a lot of those moms have kids that are a bigger embarassment than you ever were to your kids. Love them, enjoy them, and most of all spend time with them. We'll all be here for you.