I woke up feeling great today. This is the first day in a while that I have felt ready to wake up when I needed to. I was excited and looking forward to the day. What is different about today than yesterday or the day before? I don't know. I am feeling good enough that I don't care. I actually feel euphoric - better than I have for years. (It's a bit weird really.)
Possible reasons
- the holiday's are coming? (Not a lot quicker than they were on Monday, though).
- over my no sugar hump. (Though I have done that before.)
- because I lost weight. (One kilo?? I've done that countless times.)
- sinus's feel better. (But it's normal for them to feel fine, and they're still not perfect).
- more confidence in my health (Have felt a bit like this before - not as sure though and not as high.)
- took a multivitamin? Might have helped - I've never done that before.
- finished my anti-oestrogen
drugs. Last one last Thursday. Actually still would prefer to have some extra chemicals on my side, and have never thought Tamoxifen made me depressed, but maybe because I started taking it when I was feeling somewhat low anyway, I just didn't notice the difference? I could have thought it was because I was not yet over the chemo, or because I was having radiotherapy, or because my family was JUST TOO DAMN NOISY! or because I didn't get the job I had been training for, or because I felt sad enough to visit a counsellor. Yep. All that happened in the first few months after I started taking it. Would it take 6 days to make a difference now though?
- because I walked the dog 3 days in a row? Maybe. That counsellor did tell me a half hour walk made as much difference as one antidepressant tablet.
- because I felt so pleased with myself last night that I felt entitled to a relaxation exercise and really deep (for me) meditation? Maybe that played a part.
- because I don't feel guilty? Because I am doing what I think I should? Have my priorities straight? That could make quite a difference.
- All of the above??
This really feels biochemical. Like there's NOOOO reason. I'm just happy!!
Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good, Da da da da da da da
I knew that I would, now na na na na na na
I fee-ee-eel good, Da da da da da da da
I knew that I would, now na na na na na
So good, so good, I got you
Woaoaoaoa!!
Gotta do some work now. I keep raving on here - but haven't included as much detail about
diet and exercise I want when I'm looking back wondering what might be going right or wrong.
So here's yesterday's:
Breakfast ~ 7:30 1 wholemeal muffin, 1 tspn margarine, 1 tspn strawberry jam, 1 boiled egg, 2 weetbix, Splenda, 3/4 C (~190ml) SoGood (Lite soy milk ~ 80cal, 1.8 gm
fat, .2 gm saturated
fat, 0 transfat = 1 milk serve). White coffee. (Forgot the vege).
Lunch ~ 12.00 1 boneless chicken thigh,
fat trimmed, oven roasted w/o extra
fat, 2 slices wholemeal bread, 1 small carrot, 5 snowpeas, 1 medium pear. White coffee.
Snack ~ 4.15 1 C tomato juice (unsweetened), 1 small peach
Dinner ~ 7.15 1 small carrot eaten while cooking! Spaghetti 1 C cooked. 100gm tinned red salmon, 2 tspn olive oil, 1/2 onion, garlic, 1/4 capsicum, 1/2 stick celery, 1 flouret broccoli, 100 gm tinned tomato, 2 mushrooms. 1 tub (200 gm)
diet Apricot yoghurt (= 2 serves milk). (White coffees prob.~ 1/2 C milk during day = 1 serve milk)
Excercise: Walked to rec centre and back. About 5 little blocks to get there? Takes 20-30 mins all up? Need to check. Brisk - feel a little puffed after, not much. Jogging each time I crossed a street the other day made me feel more puffed, but I worry about my knees and ankles - maybe wait till I'm back on glucosamine (rash is almost gone). I could extend the walk without changing the little bushy, leaf littered turn around point, which is my favourite part and my reward that I look forward to, by just going to some other places first. So far I have been squeezing the walk in at the last moment - good for walking quickly, bad for how long I walk for.
Water: Probably about 1 1/2 litres (ie 8 glasses).
Bedtime: 11:00
