ok so i am starting my very own diary....this is scary... I lost 150
pounds and then got sick and gained 45 back so i am depressed and dissapointed in myself but i am starting over today! I am so tired of dissapointing myself! I tend to let my whole life depend on my weight, lately i am becoming reclusive over it I dont want to go out i feel like everyone is staring at me and i dont even want my friends and family to look at me...i know they are all thinking (well she is gaining all the weight back! soon she will be just as big as ever!)
why am i doing this to myself?!?
