Try and look at it this way - that's still 105lbs lighter than you were before
And if you managed to lose all that weight before, you can definitely do it again with the support of this forum! I'm new here as well, and I agree that it seems brilliant - really encourgaing and motivating.
I hope you can realise that however much you weigh, you're the same person, and people like you for you! Good luck, you will get to where you want to be
