I appreciate all advice and encouragement...no I didnt lose by starving but I didnt eat anything I liked
In fact I have a terrible hard time eating anything healthy, my mother was a buisness woman/artist and she never cooked and was always gone, so I have many bad eating habbits I have fallen back into, as a child I ate cereal ect all the time so I really dont have a taste for fruits and veggies. I lost the weight by excersizing like I didnt even know I could...I started out so small...just moving my arms ect and was working out 3 hrs a day by my lowest weight of 140...I lost the weight in a year but I had started taking
diet pills 4 years ago after my daughter was born. Next thing I know I was taking them all day, going days without sleep. So I decided to quit...cold turkey....I had no idea what the reprocussions would be after that i spent 6 months in and out of the hospital, they were convinsed i had multiple sclarosis and I did suffer from several seizures, well it was all a result of dt's delerium tremors, just like a heroin addict or worse. I didnt even know it was the pills I was craving, I had even stopped drinking sodas at the same time! caffine withdrawles can be as bad as any!Then I was prescribed at least 20 different steroids and blood pressure med muscle relaxers anti inflamatories and this is when the weight started back. I have gained 45
pounds since august. But I stopped taking all of it now and I have stopped gaining. But I just dont feel strong, in fact I feel weaker than ever.
But I did 30 min of
cardio yesterday and ate peanuts a salad and a chicken wrap from subway so.....here I go again! I think I can I think I can!
I hope I can....
I have been big all of my life I was 200
pounds by 15! and grew and grew till I was 23 or so...My biggest fear is that I will be a big
fat mom and dissapoint my daughter! I want to be the kind of mom she can do things with and be proud of!
