Wanna hear something f-ed up? I think my boyfriend is the most wonderful person, and I love him with all my heart. No man has ever adapted so well to me and given me so much affection--that I desparately need.
BUT...
I aksed him if he'd still be with me if I got really
fat, and he said that he wouldn't if it was to the point that he was unattracted to me.
I asked him why and he said it was because I wouldn't be healthy and taking care of myself. I was kind of steamed, so I dropped the subject. This did not change my high opinion of my boyfriend, but it made me see him in a different light--he's 6' and 151 lbs. He has been 150 lbs since puberty. He knows nothing about struggling with your weight.
Anyway, Life is hard on Big People. I wish I could change that, but I can't--I can only treat everybody how they deserve to be treated regardless of weight. I only wish people would do the same.
I recently lost 14lbs. I started wearing cute clothes once and a while, and it's warm here (65 degrees) so I wore shorts this one day in the mall. This woman (who was not overweight, but in her 40s) walked passed me, looked back, sneered and tsked tsked. I guess she didn't like my shorts. Also, women have been mad-dogging me, and men have been fawning over me. I really dislike this kind of attention--to be trated only in accordance with how people think you look on the outside. I like being thought of as attractive, but in these kinds of situations, I just want to crawl under a rock. It makes me kind of like, "WTF?"
Anyway, keep at it!
