Dear FF Diary,
I'm actually traveling, and for the last couple of days it's slipped my mind and with no time, to actually update the diary.
I am also feeling very guilty, because I struggle with choosing the healthier option in a restaurant. There are times when we get there that I am just hungry, and I could order the entire menu and eat it happily. Last night I showed some restraint, but today's lunch is a perfect example of just feeling so hungry that I went with half the menu.
Bleh. Yes, it makes me feel bad, and I wonder if I am gaining weight even in this week. I haven't been able to put in the exercise that I needed to, although I'm happy that I've taken a couple of walks instead of taking a car (where I could have easily). So, some exercise is being put in, but not at the levels I was doing before.
Yesterday, I tried using the hotel's
gym, and I realized how spoiled I am at my own
gym. I had even brought my spinning shoes on the trip in hopes that the
gym would be as good as the hotel made it sound on their website.
False advertising combined with wishful thinking.
I know that tomorrow my efforts are renewed again, on the right path, because I am back home, I will have access to healthy food again, and to my lovely, wonderful, under-appreciated
gym.
I also went ahead and decided not to wimp out on my personal training session and instead of having it in the morning - because I wasn't sure I would make it from my flight, I moved it to the afternoon.
We shall see.
I'm feeling just bleh. I know it's the food, ever since my parents became macrobiotic, I've become more aware of the effect on food in my moods and feelings, and how some foods feel better in my
body.
For example, right now, I have a sugar rush, and I feel yucky. I don't know how to balance it out. I am too full to eat something salty, and the water I am drinking is only helping digest, rather than take the icky feeling away.
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The other thing I've been contemplating -- as I look around this forum and read the posts and questions and answers -- is that there comes a point where you really have to commit yourself.
It was easy to commit myself to exercise. I will gladly and happily do it.
I know my next step is the commitment to the food portion of that, and I know I am just on the ledge looking out, trying to figure out if I can do it, and how I will feel doing it.
Another, "we shall see."
That's it for now Diary.
WineDeer.
