its been a couple of months now and im feeling great. im more excepting of my daughter now. i spent 8wks in hospital wen my girl was only 4months old i felt like my world was taken away from me but now im just starting to make up for that time. my doctors always told me i would never feel better unless i told my mum the secret i was holding onto for 10yrs. so on the 19/03/2007 i built up the courage to tell her i have never felt so good im starting to love life for the 1st time in 2yrs. my daughter is now 2yrs and 5mnths and so cute i always blamed my mum for not protecting me wen i was a kid. wen i told her she said she had no idea now i glad its out in the open and that part of my life is over ive cried enough rivers for that part of my life now i can try and live a childhood with my daughter to share it with i want to make up for all the lost time i spent scared. my daughters day care teacher comented the pther day how good and happy i am looking and for the 1st time in so many years i can actualy say that im not just puting a fake smile on my face this time its a real SMILE.  | 
