Hi there,
No worried abut the comment but I do really appreciate the apology. I don't accept any form of criticism very well which is mainly what landed me in my current eating situation in the first place. But thank you very much for taking the time to address the situation.
Logging in..almost 7am..I couldnt sleep again last night. It's becoming a regular occurence again, which is worrisome. I'm tired all day, entirely lethargic to the point where I have to force myself to the
gym and then around 9pm when i get into bed [I wake up at 520am every morning so the early nights are a necessity], I'm no longer tired. Despite the warm milk, sleepy tea and really banal book that I picked up, knowing that it was so boring it would put me to sleep, my anxiety was wreaking havoc on my brain and just wouldnt shut it off. Perhaps the past few nights [and prospectively this evening] is mainly excitement and exhilaration as my wonderful other half will be here TOMORROW. Let me tell you, long-distance is NOT easy...especially when you're engaged to the man of your dreams and you're an ocean apart while trying to plan your fairy-tale wedding! Despite how much I'm looking forward to seeing him, it will most definitely be bittersweet, as his next visit won't be until August when I fly over to Wales with him-permanently.
Most of my friends cannot seem to comprehend why this move would be so stressful. Well, I'm leaving behind everything remotely familiar and close to me and moving halfway across the world to start a new life with no financial security, no job security and serious students loans calling my name. The things we do for love I suppose..
These super early mornings are rather detrimental to my eating as i'm STARVING when I wake up so early. I try to wait until just before I leave the house at 6am to eat my breakfast but my tummy is always growling at me. So far today:
Breakfast- 1 slice high fiber toast w/ one
vegetarian chicken sausage and slice
vegan cheese
1/4 cup grapenuts with 1/2 cup soy milk [unfortunately I have to eat these for my digestive issues, despite my distaste for them]
Cals-355 [on target, alllll rigghtt!]
Gloomy day outside- expecting a thunder and lightning storm. Heading down south tonight to see 'Our Town' the musical with the parental units-36 hours until I see my baby! Have a great day everyone!
