| Dear FF Diary,
I am updating this out of obligation.
The last couple of days has been an emotional roller coaster for me, and I find myself not keeping track of the food that I am eating. At least, I've been keeping up on the exercise.
The emotional stuff is boyfriend related -- but not really anything I feel I can talk about here. It's not anything drastic, and we're not breaking up, but these conversations I think make me look at myself in a different way.
And that way is not a pleasant way -- I really think I need to work on the self-esteem. Like a good dieter that I am, I am doing this to make improvements -- all health reasons aside.
My self-esteem goes up and down, but thankfully, it's not associated with my weight. I say thankfully because even if I don't lose weight it won't necessarily affect that.
But it is about exerting control over my life, and food, is definitely part of it.
Bleh. I am not feeling my best, and it's time for me to go to bed. I have a different trainer tomorrow -- mine is on vacation -- and this woman never got back to me if she would be there at 7 AM.
I hope she is. I'll be very upset if she is not.
Bye Diary!
WineDeer.  | 
