Dear FF Diary,
I think I am not being very good at keeping this updated.
I think I know why. Part of it is sort of this psychological game I'm playing with myself -- if I don't write down how I feel, what happened in regards to my
diet, I can pretend that it's not affecting me.
Well, in the last week or so, I've discovered that I am probably eating more
calories than I should. I also discovered it's very difficult for me to choose a healthier alternative when eating something.
I stick to the "I'm not eating fast food every day therefore anything else I eat must be healthier and better for me" but that's clearly not working. I'm essentially maintaining my weight with my
diet.
And I
know I have to lower that caloric intake. I can't say that I don't know how -- I mean, I just eat less. But....
ARGH....
I don't want to give up my food. But I guess the I have to in order to get the
body I want, right? Doing more exercise isn't going to do it.... right?
ARGH.....
Yes, I don't know why this is so traumatizing for me. I just feel so trapped if I have to cut down my
calories. Or rather, if I have to cut down the food I eat.
ARGH. I need to do a lot of thinking and considering. I may even ask the boyfriend for a pep talk.
WineDeer
