So i'm STILL fluctuating between the 137-138 mark...i can't seem to shake it! It's frustrating because I lost about 3
pounds and have kept that off no problem, and now i've been stuck for I don't know how long. I also think some of it may be my attitude about things...I just want it gone so bad that maybe i'm stressing out too much over it..I don't know how to cool it and just let my
body do it's thing while I work my best at it. I'm also having problems getting an eating pattern down right..I average in the 1200 c range, and I burn at least 3000 a day..so I think i need more
calories to not go in the
starvation mode and slow down my metabolism. It's just hard for me to eat when i'm not hungry, and also not feel guilty about it like i'm undoing my hard work. grrrr. This coming weekend i'm going with a group of friends to the lake for some fun in the sun...2 years ago i would be reeeally excited, but now i'm kind of dreading it. Not ready to don the bikini just yet, so I'm gonna try extra hard to eat right and keep working out. I barely drank any water yesterday which was not good, so i'm really trying to suck it down today. I was also thinking about buying some slim fast snack bars or shakes to try for breakfast or when I need a meal on the go...anybody have much experience with those? I just wanted something different to mix things up and see how they work. It's gloomy and rainy out today, and like 30 degrees cooler than yesterday (that's iowa for ya), and that puts me in a "blah" mood. I need my sun!!! I told my fiance last night how I wanted to lose weight. I felt really weird saying it because I've been so secretive about the whole process and didn't want anyone to know i'm trying to lose. I don't know why. So it felt good to get that out in the open..at least to him...but at the same time it just feels weird. He of course doesn't think I need to lose weight, he says i look the same, but it's just something i need to do to feel better about myself and be happy. well that was a long entry..and it's only 11...I'll probably write more today..i can be chatty
