Well here goes an update. If i didn't like to drink, I would have no problems with weight. I have been eating very well: tuna fish for lunch, salad for dinner....but then!!!!!!!!!!!!! whisky and
diet coke. not just one, no no no two three yeah probably more like 4. Then i go to bed, wake up and hate myself. I'm going to try not to drink much anymore. I'm not an alcoholic, I just have an oral fixation, I was drinking huge jugs of ice water, which i need to return to. I have motivation, but I also have a bit of depression due to my fiance. I came home from work early one day and he was, well watching some porno, and ya know, that other thing that goes along with it. I know many females don't mind pornos in the house, but I call it a form of cheating. We don't get intimate, because I won't let him touch me anymore. (because of the
weight gain, nothing else) I just don't feel attractive.
So now we are constantly fighting with eachother, and alcohol never helps the situation. So i dunno, hopefully my mood changes fast enough, and I can get back to focusing on other things. But today is friday, and my boyfrined works tomorrow, so I get a Hayley day!! woohoo!!
