my motivation is that being big is something i grew up with. it's not necessarily herditary, but my mom was pretty big on comfort food and i don't think i ever properly learned to eat healthy. i handled the ridicule by being violent toward people, and that never solves anything. i already have the self-esteem issues and depression, and being overweight doesn't make it any easier to cope. i worry that my skinny fiancee will think i'm too
fat for him and leave me. and i'm getting married in 2 years and i want to be the beautiful person i know i am. i've lost weight before, but i lost it in an unhealthy way so i gained it right back and i'm having a harder time than ever losing any weight this time around. my motivation is that i have to do this for me, to help me with my self-esteem.
