Hi everyone,
I introduced myself last night or I guess it could be considered to be early morning.
If you want to read the introduction just jump over to newbies and read "jumping on the bandwagon (again)".
For breakfast this morning I had a Special K protein bar and a 1/2 can of Great Value fruit cocktail in splenda juice. Total of 160
calories already.
So far I am struggling because I really want to eat "more" this morning. Not because I am hungry but because I WANT to. Ugg.
I feel so disgusted with myself.
That "machine" is sitting in the other room mocking me. I don't even have the ~want to~ to jump on it right now. It seems that every evening I feel very motivated to get this plan started and I always say tomorrow I will start. Tomorrow rolls around and all that ~get to itness~ has disappeared.
I don't want that to happen again.
I really am tired of being
fat. There I said it....
FAT!!!
That is what I am. It is hard to come to terms with that. I think that I have the only case of reverse anorexia in the world. I really think that I am much smaller than what I really am. Probably just a good ol' case of denial.
Ok so I am going to get off my butt and go dust off that elliptical.
I'l let you know how I did. That is if I survive the ride!
Bellaryna
