So I guess this is officially day two. And its over, thank GOD!!! Did really well until the end of the night, like I say, I think that when I don't do anything, thats when I think, huh. A giant bowl of cereal would be great right now... Still though, I didn't freak out and have any crazy splurges(um, except for the cereal
), which is a positive sign.
Its already pretty obvious that noone is looking at my journal, regardless of how many posts and comments I seem to leave for other people, and I'm ok with that... I have a friend joining, so I guess I'll have one person to help me. That isn't suppose to sound negative either(on the off chance that someone HAPPENS to read this), its just true. When I first signed up for this a year ago, the amount of support I received was PHENOMENAL(sp??). I lost forty
pounds, and then just sorta dropped out... there were other issues of course- I wrote about them in an old diary- so I guess I kinda deserve no help... but in another 18 days, it will be exactly a year since the main reason I've regained 20lbs has happened. Screw depression, who needs it. Screw people who don't believe in you. Screw the fact that the people that are suppose to protect you REALLY don't care what happens to you. Its time to just do it, get over it, get on with life. I was happy after 40lbs gone.. I can be that way again. And hopefully by this time next year, I'll have fantastic before and after pics to put up
Christie- where are you man!! I need you
