sorry - just had to bitch some more...
i am worried about myself (as lame as this sounds)... i am the one who is caring too much and he is not... not a good thing... how do you not care? i, unfortunately, have had these feelings since we broke up.. for the last 4 years... yeah.. not a good thing but totally my own stupid fault.
for about a year i made the decision not to talk to him, answer his calls, see him, etc.. then i gave in. i am so regretting it.
