Hi everyone.
As most of you, I've been here for a while and I have decided to make a diary today to help me stay on track. The motivation you are giving to eachother and all the support are amazing! I just couldn't help hopping on board when I found it, so here I am now with my story!
I am 18 and currently right under the obese borderline on the
BMI chart. I was always chubby but it was never this serious. I would say that the point of no return for me was when I came back home after finishing my foreign exchange student experience and stepped on my scale. When I saw those 80kgs staring at me I felt like someone slapped me right across my face. In a period of a year I spent away from home I have gained about 15
kilograms! You would think that would really motivate me to change my lifestyle and start losing those
pounds wouldn't you? Well, I guess not. I continued eating because I was sad, and I was sad because I ate and it all trapped me in a vicious cycle that was dragging me down further more. On one rainy day I woke up and stepped on the scale. 85.3kilograms. I was always on the heavy side and on a
diet for as long as I could remember, but never this big. I felt crushed.
Generally I am a very happy person. Seeing me without a smile on my face or not randomly bursting into song means that something is seriously wrong.
Being pressured with the weight I was carrying I felt sadder than ever before. Smiling and singing were the last things on my mind. I did the last things that would ever be on my mind -- I gave up. I thought that this is stronger that me and that I cannot beat it.
Two months ago I went to get medically checked up and they found all these things wrong with me connected with my
weight gain and that was a harsh wake up call for me. I couldn't go on a
diet right away because I was taking medication for some of the gastrointestinary problems they've detected but things definately changed in my mind.
I decided it is time to take charge of my life.
I decided to fight.
So here I am now, fighting with the weight that made me a prisoner of my own
body. This time my resolution to lose weight is actually coming true. I am doing it and I am not stopping no matter what. No more excuses, no more failures. I am stronger than this and I can win it.
People on this board and their stories are so inspiring to me. When I see their successes it makes me so much more motivated to work harder to achieve my own. I hope that, one day not to long from now, a newbie on here can read my story and feel inspired as well.
I will work hard to make it happen.
I love you all and wish you a good loss today!
p.s. One of the favorite writers of mine said something that really impacted me, so I wanted to share it with you:
"When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too"
Paulo Coelho
