| That's rough! I hope you are doing much better now. Sometimes good things can come out of the worst situations. The death of someone we love can remind us of the importance of our own lives and inspire us to grow. (Hopefully that doesn't sound to Hallmark Card-ish...but I'm pretty sure it does)
I just went out with a really close friend of mine the other day. Her mom passed away a year ago last week. Her mom's death was a wakeup call for her, too. She is a completely changed person. She is so much more optimistic and had made some wonderful changes in her life. She explained to me that as much as she missed her mom, she is so thankful for the changes that the tragedy inspired her to make. It has made her love and appreciate her mom's life (and her own) even more.
Good luck with your new plan of attack!! | 
