I have been overweight my entire life and morbidly obese all of my adult life. I have tried diets, tried eating healthy and excercise. I am afraid to let myself succeed. I need help, but I'm always afraid to ask. I love my friends and i know they would give me the support I need, but I am too busy sabatoging myself to really give myself a chance. I had a party last week, and after seeing the photos I cried. It's gotten that bad. I don't feel sexy, even though my boyfriend says I am. I always feel like he is just trying to make me feel better. I have really bad
body image issues that I do my best to hide, but I feel he deserves better. I am afriad of getting sick, but I am not so worried that I actually try to loose the weight. I make excuses, I have an addictive personality, but my only drug is sugar. I eat chocolate, and I hide my eating habits, even from people I love. I want to make a change, but I'm not sure I know how. I know I rambled a bit, but I am hoping I can find the help I need on this forum. I am at my heaviest now, than I can ever remember being, and I wanted to share with you, the pictures I was talking about.
http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b3...23b42983-1.jpg http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b3...4f36c454-1.jpg http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b3...f431a8eee3.jpg 
