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Originally Posted by smallkisses  I have been overweight my entire life and morbidly obese all of my adult life. I have tried diets, tried eating healthy and excercise. I am afraid to let myself succeed. I need help, but I'm always afraid to ask. I love my friends and i know they would give me the support I need, but I am too busy sabatoging myself to really give myself a chance. I had a party last week, and after seeing the photos I cried. It's gotten that bad. I don't feel sexy, even though my boyfriend says I am. I always feel like he is just trying to make me feel better. I have really bad body image issues that I do my best to hide, but I feel he deserves better. I am afriad of getting sick, but I am not so worried that I actually try to loose the weight. I make excuses, I have an addictive personality, but my only drug is sugar. I eat chocolate, and I hide my eating habits, even from people I love. I want to make a change, but I'm not sure I know how. I know I rambled a bit, but I am hoping I can find the help I need on this forum. I am at my heaviest now, than I can ever remember being, and I wanted to share with you, the pictures I was talking about. http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b3...23b42983-1.jpg http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b3...4f36c454-1.jpg http://i22.photobucket.com/albums/b3...f431a8eee3.jpg |
Hey, Like you i have been over weight my whole life too. It started off in about 5th grade only being 10 or 15
pounds bigger than everyone but as the years grew I grew bigger and bigger. it seems like every year i gain about 30
pounds.Just recently I had the picture scare too. I didnt even reconize my self in the picture and the hardest part was i couldnt blame it on the picture or a bad angle because everyone else in the picture looked the same. Im tired of hating myself and Not feeling like im sexy enough or good enough for people. I find myself skiping hangouts because im nervous of seeing people and worried if i run into someone that i havent seen in awhile and they will see all the weight i have gained. I want to be able to go out and swim or wear a pair of shorts or a revealing shirt without feeling discusting,I just found this forum,. Im not really sure how you use it or anything but everyone on here seems to be so supportive. I think that you can do this. Your very pretty and if loosing a weight will give you the confidence that I know will give me then go for it. Im Starting my
diet now... Im not really sure how to
diet since ive never really stuck to one but Im going to eat healthy foods and less
calories and try to exercise. Your not alone. Im in the same boat as you and if you ever need some support or you find a really good exercise or
diet you can talk to me anytime!
~Much Support~kayleena
