First I wanted to say thank you to everyone for their kind words. I am a very emotional person and I cry pretty easily, so its safe to say I was sobbing by the time I finished reading these replies. When I first started dating Bryan I told him I wanted to lose weight before I got married, and now that we have been together a while, we have been talking about marriage. He is holding me to the promise I made to myself a long time ago. I want to be a beautiful bride, but I can't find the motivation I need. The fact that I just sat here feeling sorry for myself should be motivation enough, but it's not. I have tried buying clothes that I can't wear, and tried rewarding myself for hitting small goals. I am an all or nothing kind of person. If I were addicted to
drugs I could cut myself off and walk away, but how do you walk away from food when you need it to survive? Any suggestions that anyone has would be amazing. I am exhausted and I need to go to bed, work early in morning.
