I wish I could start the last 4 days all over again. I was thinking that my actions this weekend would not be all that bad. Boy I was wrong. It is taking allot for me to write this but I need to hold myself accountable.

I was so sure that this weekend was going to be a good one. Well I went to work and did fine with my eating. I got out of work and back home and 8:30 pm and my husband says he would like to take me out to eat. My first thought was great I don't want to cook. And in the back of my mind I was saying you fool look what time it is. So we went and I had 2 glasses of wine. We decided to share a couple of apps. So we got a spicy mussel dish it was made with heavy cream. And they gave us toasted dipping bread for all of the sauce. With every bite I knew I was messing up big time. So after that I chose to order a steamed dumpling dish made with pork, ginger and it had a soy dipping sauce with that. I felt really good about those they were the better of all the choices on the late menu. Oh don't let me forget to tell you all the snacks they had out that I could not stay out of.

And then on the way out my husband ordered a grilled Penni to go. Somebody just shoot me. So my husband suggested we swing into a local bar for a night cap. Well that was three beers later.

Sunday we got up and shard the Penni.(we can eat anything in the morning) I just could not keep the bad choices to one day no I had to continue on into the next. We did go for a long hike and I really better about the bad mistakes. But last night I did not control my portions.

I cannot tell you how angry at myself I am. Where is my will power? I now have to live with the scale and my decisions. I really need to get it together. For the last two weeks the scale had not moved and now it did. But in the wrong direction. I am today going to do more research on eating well. I feel that I am not eating enough during the day and when I eat supper I overeat. And that was the way of the old Tina. I get so mad when I fail.

I hope that this week I can stay on track.
Tina

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