Only seeing my boyfriend on weekends is really starting to bother me. We are in a serious, committed relationship, but I only seeing him one or two days a week. He works out of town, so mon-fri he is gone. I had a bit downfall today. I had to work 7-3, and he left around 1pm to go to the town he works in.. so I didn't see him at all today. I came home from work exhausted, and all I really wanted was to spend time with him. Since he wasn't here I turned to food. It was almost like a mini-binge I guess. 2490
calories later... I feel awful. I hate how I turn to food when I am bored, lonely, tired, or whenever any kind of negative emotion occurs. It doesn't help much that we are out of food right now so we don't have any fruit or dairy in the house... even the veggies are limited to broccoli and spinach. I thought it would be healthy not having alot of food around, but it's the opposite. I just end up binging on the few unhealthy foods we do have (ex. popcorn and granola bars). Anyways... I am meeting with a personal trainer tomorrow. I have never been the sporty or thin girl... and now I know why. I love food, I am obsessed with food. I don't know how to not be this way. Seems like my
goal is farther and farther away. I want to stay hopeful, but it is seemingly impossible. Counting
calories is accurate and makes sense... but it is annoying. Who wants to track everything they put in their mouths! Well, I am going to get going. Gotta figure out how I am going to survive the personal trainer tomorrow.
