I am…



So it’s only normal for me to want to get back to my most natural state.

Between the ages of 4 and 10 I started copying behavior I learnt from watching my mom – binge eating. By the time my mother realized I had been doing this, it was already clearly visible by my chubbiness:



So I went to my first dietician. Sometimes I think it was a good thing because I learnt a lot about nutrition and healthy living. I still see myself as a “guru” in my circle of friends!

So, following a healthy eating plan (NOT a diet ) I slimmed down quite a bit by age 12:



Continuing with the healthy living, and starting horse riding, I think I arrived at what looks like my ideal weight by age 14:



I maintained this weight pretty well for a few years. By age 15 I had gotten a more womanly figure, which filled me out a bit.



This is about when I started partying and drinking. My social life also became more important than horse riding. At this time, I fell into an “alcohol-induce” depression. It does run in my family (depression), so I was taken to a neurologist and prescribed antidepressant pills.

Just before I turned 16, I fell pregnant. I ended up not having the baby, but the weight I had had gained was still there. I was also very depressed and still drinking too much (binge drinking) over weekends. This is how I looked 2 months after the pregnancy:



I stayed at more or less this weight, and even did some modeling. They weren’t commercial, just awesome glam shots:



Now, I think it was my ongoing struggle with depression that got me to my next weight. I was still doing some photoshoots, but these are the pictures where I actually thought “Is that me? Ugh!”



(Continued in next post...)

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