I have decided to lose weight because I feel disgusting. I have been a thin person all my life until about 8 years ago...I cant stand it. I have an extremely attractive boyfriend, and while he always tells me how he loves me and doesnt care about my weight, I still feel like garbage all the time when we go out. I think people are thinking, "why is he with her?" I guess it plays on me mentally and really brings me down. I have teeter tottered with weight and Im pretty sick of it. I need all the help in the world because I love food, Im a restaurant manager, I work over 10 hours a day so all my meals are in the restaurant and free. While I try to eat chicken and salads, sometimes the pasta dishes, or the fish and chips really tackle me to the ground and I devour them like a crack attic in an alley. Whatever...Im here now, so any inspiration would be appreciated | 
