I could post so many reasons here why I want to lose weight.
I could say it's because I'd like to actually find some clothing besides T-shirts and stretchy pants that didn't look like it was made from drapes or a circus tent. But then seeing as how I've been this size this long I don't think thats my motivation, although I will be SO happy when I'm into jeans again. I have a full closet of size 18's and 20's brand new to get into.
But honestly my motivations are these:
I want to be able to get up in the morning and finish my day and have the
energy to do it all. Heck, I'd like to just get out of bed not hurting from head to toe.
I'd like to be able to go to a restaurant and not have to worry if I'm going to fit in the booth or not, or going anywhere and not worrying about fitting into a seat for that matter.
I'd like to be able to climb the stairs at my apartment with my arms full and not feel like I'm dying at the top.
I used to go on hiking trips even though I was heavy. Now I worry whether I can make it to the back of the bigger grocery stores without collapsing in pain.
After having a car accident 8 years ago that put me in a wheelchair for a year and knowing I was never supposed to walk again, I'd like to lose enough wait so I can stop being afraid I'm going to end up back in that wheelchair.
And even if none of these reasons were enough, I'd like to get my weight down so my husband and I can have children and I can be a mom before time runs out.
It's no longer just about how I appearance anymore. I walk around every day carrying the weight of two other people on my 5'1 tall
body.
I'd like to live my life without worrying, without fear, without pain, without limitations caused by the weight.
I've already missed out on so much, vacations, having a real wedding....I'm determined that I am not going to miss out on one more day of my life.
And honestly if I hit a wall and what I'm doing isn't working I'll change it. If I have a day I screw up and lapse, well it's over and I'll start fresh but I WILL NOT any longer allow one day to turn into a week and then months of "I'll start again tomorrow" that never comes. Looking back I see all the little things I let get in my way and this time it's not going to happen. I'm here for my final weightloss countdown!
