It's okay to rant a little, I do that sometimes. lol
I feel you on a lot of the things you said. I can't pretend to be happy like I am because i'm not. And like you,
weight loss for me isn't just for the look, it's for the health, the confidence, and all that good stuff.
I already read your blog.. so you'll have to stick with it.

Good luck, and I look foward to read about your progress!
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