Hey Emma - looks like you're doing great. I'm a bit of a 'returner' to the forum too & much of your opening post sounds familiar - the whole not doing things properly etc is so true! I learned so much last time around & hopefully this time I can join you in those losses!!!!
Breaking into the
gym is hard enough - but you've conquered that with seeming ease by the sound of things. Go on, take that step and move to the
weights if it's the move you want to make. All that you've achieved so far has earned you the right to defeat your inhibitions - go on, lock them away, kick them into touch & remember - you've earned it!!