Oh no, that doesn't sound shitty at all and I thank you for your input!!
And I agree with everything you're saying up until the imaginary eating disorder part; I've denied having a problem with depression and eating for a long time, and finally I'm learning that what I'm experiencing isn't typical or normal. People have told me to, "snap out of it" since I was young, and I've always felt like it was consequently a moral dilemma-- a lack of motivation or willpower, if you will, when really it's a mental issue and a disease.
Looking through my journals and diaries throughout grade school until now, ALL I've ever thought about was weight and losing it-- no matter what weight I actually was. I stopped looking in the mirror for 6 months at one point, didn't go to my high school prom, wore nothing but skirts for four years because my father called me
fat once.... So, it's been controlling my life to the point where I can't function anymore and all I want to do is hide in bed. This is something I've been dealing with for 20 years, and I'm finally accepting the fact that I should get help for it.
