I'm glad you started a diary. We sound like we have similar circumstances as far as age and weight. I don't have any children so I just got
fat by eating too much. I think the people around us just love us the way were are, so they are not aware of all the obsessing we do and probably don't notice our eating habits all that much. It is such a huge thing for us to lose weight. I have only been here a couple of weeks, but have found the support has made a big difference for me too. I also have not been counting
calories all that much other than just being aware of what I am eating in a general sense. So far so good. I hope you stick around.