| Hey IWBT!
Ok, so I have to tell you a few things. First of all to answer your last question...why are bigger people able to lose weight while smaller people can't? Well first of all bigger people have more to lose (not that it's easy for ANYONE) but the more there is to lose the more there will be lost. Does that make sense? I hope so. Also I feel it important to tell you this, as someone who's had the exact same feelings about life. Death doesn't fix ANYTHING. I have very stong beliefs and I'll tell you, death is simply the next "stage" of life. Who you are here, what you like, dislike, how you feel, this is all part of YOU. Death doesn't change YOU. You are special. If there's something about you that you don't like, you can work on it, but trust me death is NOT the answer. Now on to something slightly different. Can I ask if you like your eyes? Maybe your nose? Smile? Hands? Feet? Every morning spend some time..some REAL time at least 10 minutes looking at that body part that you like. Think about it, think about how you feel about it, how others feel when they see your eyes, nose, smile, hands or feet. (Would you believe my favorite body part of my ex boyfriend was his beautiful feet?) Think about what that body part does for you EVERY day, every hour. Imagine if you didn't have it, or it (they) were different. Pick a different body part every week, or week and a half. First remember to APPRECIATE who you are, and not only that but that YOU are not just a body, that's a big and important part of who you are, but not the only part. Ok, I also want to comment about how you refused to see a physcologist, do you realize that a lot of times we avoid the thing that will help us the most because subconshusly (sp?) we're scared. The truth is that your issue is not about weight, I don't know you, so I can't say what has hurt you, but I'm betting a phycologist would be able to help you figure it out. You're not fat, to be completly honest, I'd LOVE to be your size!!! You've got my dream size body!! There's a lot of weight lose tips, but I'm not gonna give you any because you don't need them. Well that's not true, I'll give you this one. Make sure you're drinking lots of water. It helps you lose weight, PLUS helps keep your WHOLE body healthy. From what you've written I can see that your parents love you and are worried about you...please let them help you, don't brush off seeing a specialist. Binging and purging is not about food, it's an emotional thing. Good luck!! Stay positive!!
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