In regards to this, I totally understand. When I weighed 170, I hated my body. All jiggly, big butt, big stomach Then I started doing this exercise video. Nothing too strenuous, but it had some cardio, which was fun when I turned up my own music, a little light weight training, and some ab work.
And let me tell you, even though I only ever lost 10 pounds, and was still overweight, I got more toned, and I felt better about myself than I ever had in my life.
It sounds like you are just dieting, but in order to shape your body, it needs some sort of exercise and muscle toning.

Also, I agree with the above posters. I think you should talk to somebody. I'm glad getting it out here is helping, but you really do need to get through the root of the problems.

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Starting Weight: 200 lbs Current: 142

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