You probably don't want to hear my thoughts, but because of the binging and purging, and the suicidal thoughts - you really should see someone - not sure how the UK works - here, you don't have to see a physchyatrist, you can see a counciler.
You've revealed alot of personal thoughts in your first post. Here is something about me - that has driven me to mass depression, and I am seeing a counciler because of it (finally, after saying I didn't want to see one for years)
I'm 29, married, and have had 2 miscarriages. Not only that - but I found out my uterus was all mis-shaped, and had surgery to fix it, only to go on to have another "miscarriage" or what is called a chemical pregnancy. I cried and cried and cried. I was so pissed because so many people were getting pregnant - and they didn't deserve to be, and I did - I hated so much of life. I wasn't suicidal, but I cried all the time.
I am seeing a counciler. I didn't beleive in counciling. She is helping me so much. She has tought me that I still need to persue getting pregnant, but to concetrate on
weight loss - not because she looked at me and thought I was
fat - but because I expressed unhappiness with the way I look. Well - that's what brings me here.
I agree you are not obese - you are possibly mildly overweight - and it is easier for heavier people to lose faster.
PCOS was the first thing I thought too. As someone who has gone through some infertility, I have read alot about women who have PCOS. As the former poster said - that will attribute to having facial hair, and cause
weight gain (it is hard to lose weight at the same time)
My friend at work - has PCOS. She has the facial hair (waxing constantly) - and she was overweight.
She worked hard, and she has given me clothes to give to my sister. She is 5'4" and looking at the tags - she was up to a size 24.
She is now a size 12 - and she is still losing weight.
Weightwatchers,
yoga, and excersize helped her.
I'm sorry - I know you don't want to see anyone to help you - and I respect that, I really do - when you are ready, you will do it - and I can't push you to. I respect your decision, and am glad you came here - and I hope that it helps to vent.
