Sigh...
I see a difference. I do not see an apreciable difference in firmness. 35 lbs should get a 'holy shit' reaction from me.
I am not being self-loathing or anything like that- at least I do not think so. I still jiggle too much and am not really pleased.
New pictures this weekend. We shall see.....

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Holy shit reactions are hard to come by - I've said this countless times... but I've lost close to 200lbs and do not get a holy shit difference... yes difference but looking good - No..

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Well, I'd like to direct you to my pictures thread. You'll see ups and downs just like this... hell, I still have them, but it only motivates me more. Firmness won't happen until you get down the bodyfat, however, I assure you that you probably have a VERY decent set of muscles under all of it. 35 lbs did nothing for me in terms of seeing it... I didn't see anything impressive until 50 lbs... So I do understand and know where you are coming from, you aren't "crazy" even thought a hundred people have told you differently about the change. I'll never forget my first compliment... about 25 lbs or so in, one of my closest friends. She said it as we were leaving a parking lot from a movie, I thought she was nuts... it's just the little things, but I know where you are at mentally.

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At least it is a normal thing.
It is just a real crap feeling working so damn hard all freaking week and then seeing a picture and wanting to just stop because there is no real difference. But then knowing you enjoy what you are doing and that it is so good for your life that you do not want to stop it. It is this dicotomy that I am dealing with right now.
I know I look better than I did 1/08. But i also think I do not look that good in 4/08.

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You cannot honestly tell me that you have not had a 'holy shit' reaction after 200 lbs.....
c'mon.

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Yep. Here is the PAYOFF tho... and trust me, it is worth EVERY damn sweat bead (here is the scenario):

You look in the mirror, turn to the side and say... "Wow, I'm fit! I mean, no, really... I look good!"

Does this mean you'll feel that way subsequently every time afterwards? No way! However, you are going to one day realize it is not for nothing. I was closer to 70 lb loss when I said that for the first time (I however, was up there at 283 too). You sir, are very close to your breakthrough moment. I think I had to ditch the scale mentality first to get there. But, well worth the efforts...

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Scale mentality is gone for now.
I realized I am way to old to be ruled by a number. I am focusing on fitness and nutrition more than weight loss at this point. I figure that even at 225 I am a good weight for my height if I relocate where stuff is.
Dropping fat is my priority. Obviously I am still in a deficit but I am not concentrating as much on it. I know how to eat right- macros are more important to me now.

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Brian - I deal with this every freaking day. It could be the wrong outfit or picture or whatever, but there are just days where I say - WHY F'ING BOTHER anymore...I bother b/c I hated myself and now I don't. I am not happy with where I am but there is no magic to getting lean and I have to pass through this place to get to that end.

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Thank you sir, have nothing to really fret over except that time doesn't move as quickly as we hope.

If you want a fun toy to play with... try this, make yourself a virtual character, I did this way back when I was about 245 lbs. Saw what I would be at a lower weight... very fun stuff.

Fitness.com - Free Exercises, Fitness Equipment, Customized Workout, Fitness Programs, Fitness Articles, Beauty Fitness, Weight Loss, Weight Training, Diet Plans

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The irony is I am thrilled with where I am. I am stronger and more fit than i ever was in my life. I just always thought that would translate into a better looking me- by better understand I do not mean better than i was but better than I am now.
I will overcome and all- I just looked in the mirror this morning and kinda sighed and wondered why.

As much as we all hate to admit it, we are a vain group of people. Unfortunately i am vain and into instant gratification. Not a good duo.

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Thanks Keith. I'll take a look at it.
Time should move quicker Dammit!!
But only when I need it to and only as fast as I want it.
Not too much to ask is it?

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Not at all... <scoffs>

This is the better one, has a side to side weightloss comparison.

My Virtual Model- shopping online

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Ask Keith how I feel about instant gratification - I WANT IT NOW DAMNIT

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I want mine yesterday- how's that?



Thanks guys, you all really helped this morning.

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