ahhh~ welll~ things have bn going pretty... not good not bad~
I've bn maintaining my weight all month~ and all month before that~ not loosing... not gaining~ =( wah!
But thanks for all the replies, every1~ =)
I love you all~<3 ;D ~~u all rok~<3
I've been spending the night at friends houses alot~ and going out alot in the last month or so~ meaning~ I've had no time to concentrate on my dieting or exersice~
as much as it kills me to eat bad~ =__= how could i resist?... after my tummy cussin me out for not feeding it~ all i had access to was what the ppl i was staying with ate~
One family~ They are made up of abunch of skinny ppl! all toothpicks! the mother and every1 in the family must be the smallest size existant to man~ O_o... like a -1 or something~ lolz~ yet!!! what they eat!! is the most fattening things in the world!! and they eat alot!!! i counted up the fat grams in one of their meals and it came to... 30-50 fat grams!! I'm talkin bout stuff like... buttery biscuts, sausage, chewy bacon (need i go on and kill myself? =| ...)
I dont' understand why I'm cursed with the metabolism i have and have to watch ppl so skinny like that eat so much!! and not gain a pound!! whilest i eat a peanut and gain 20 pounds~
The other family was one of the larger families~ they wanted to diet and watch what they ate but had no determination to~ and the only food they had was very unhealthy also~ i tried to help em tho... but after spending 2 days with them i had to accept their food also~ since i'd rather be overweight than anerexic~
Then~ there is the family that forces me to eat by taking me out all the time(usually)~ pressures me and makes me feel bad if i don't~ TT____TT
They took me to this buffet~ and bought me a meal i didn't want (bc i already ate) I felt like~ they spent all that money on me~ might as well not be rude and accept their offer too~
I sound like I'm making a ton of excuses right? ~___~
But it's sooo freakin hard now! now that I'm home and away from all the bad foodlings~ I feel addicted to food agn~ I'm starting to crave it all the time~ it's all I can think a/b now!!!
it's like...
boyfriend: wanna watch a movie, hon?
me: you bet i do!! ((thinking: ....POPCORN!!!! O______O))
=.= I wanna get back on track so bad~ but we're going out agn for the day~ we have to drive out of town (takes us almost an hour to get there since we live in southern hickville, Alabama) so we plan on stayin in town all dayyy~~~ until my therapist appointment~
T___T I hope my determination stays with me and I'm not temped by my mom's offers to eat at that great resteraunt place that we always go to... or that bakery with the delicious cookies and desserts that has this creepy guy who checks me out..!! >__<
I can't wait to get my own place~ I'll never spend money on food! =P
I'd rather buy my J-pop/rock concerts that i watch all day~ that make me want to be a dancer~
dont you see? I'd be skinny if i lived on my own! O_O
with the not buying alot of food and the dancing~... lolz~ i joke =P
wah~ I'm talking alot~ sorry~ I just get sooo lonely!!! ... ~__~
