((warning - lots of reading >_< ))

over a year ago I seriously started getting concerned about my weight and did everything i could to work it off (I bought every single workout thing i could afford at the time O_O).

I was sick of the way the kids at school tortured me and I was sick of hating my body more than anything else (at times I'd put myself down more than any of the kids at school). The kids made fun of me and got me so down and depressed (my gym teacher even used my obesity as a bad example to the class saying that if they didnt' cooperate in class they'd end up with flab all over their bodies like me). I was too depressed to handle public school. I had to drop out from public school and my mom decided to homeschool me after that. After I was homeschooled I spent alot more time in my room with myself. I hated it even more.. it gave me time to think about how much i didn't like the body I was in and realize I wanted to do something about it~

I couldnt' afford a pass to the gym for a few months and had to deal with the things I could afford~ exercise balls, aerobics/yoga DVDs, my dad's weights, ect.~ Until I helped my mom save up for my 1st month at the gym~ every1 was very nice~ they gave mne a workout sched. and I tried my best to do it.
It was my 1st time on a tredmil! I had bought new workout shoes the day before b/c I didn't have any shoes that were suitable for working out in~ after 10 minutes on the tredmil the heels of my feet started burning from them rubbing up against my new shoes but I ignored it and continued running b/c i was so determined to loose weight~ after running for 30 minutes I couldn't run anymore and i had to stop~ I went into the bathroom and took off my shoes to see that my heel had been ripped open from my new shoes and I had gotten blood all over my new $80 shoes. There were blisters all over my toes and the balls of my feet.

I came home shortly after and got into the shower to find out that my inner thighs had shafed so badly that they started to burn to death from my shower~ along with my heels. The bottom of my feet were numb from all the blisters. I felt horrible~ and it was only the 1st day.nothing seemed to stop me~ I bought bandaids for my heels, new pants so my inner thighs wouldnt' rub, and popped all my blisters and went to the gym the next day regardless of how sore I was.

over time I started seeing results to the point were i would be loosing a pound a day! So I refused to stop working out and dieting.

After awhile I joined a step aerobics class. It was intense but fun~! and I think it really helped my weight loss. until I messed up my ankle in class~ it still hurts today when i walk on it too hard or put too much pressure on it.

I had one friend. She was the only friend I had at the time. She seemed to bring me down and compare her size 4/6 body to my size 22/24 body all the time.. she talked down to me and hurt me but she was the only person I had so I ignored it. soon enough it got me so down~ I started going to the gym less and staying in my room all day... soon enough~ I stopped going to the gym completely! I stopped loosing weight and I stopped caring. All I did was spend time in front of this computer 24/7.

Later on my friend had this boyfriend~ they didn't work out and he seemed to like me more~ so me and him started going out. Me and my friend are no longer friends anymore. me and my boyfriend both were sick of how mean she was to us.as of today me and him have been going out for one year now! =D

My boyfriend helped me get started on my weight loss once again after months of not caring~ I started going back to the gym and making endless efforts to loose weight like I used to~ I couldnt' loose it no matter what~ I was stuck at 200 pounds for almost 7 months. recently aerobics classes opened back up and I've started going again to that and yoga. Now I've lost another 20 pounds since I've gone back!

overall~ throughout everything I've typed about~ I've managed to get from a size 24 to a size 14. I've started loosing again and I plan to loose another 48 pounds! I'm more than half way done with my mission to have a healthy body I can be satisfied with! Next year I plan to go with my dreams and get back into public school so I can try out for cheerleading!
Also~ my boyfriend had asked me to the prom which is march 18th! =D!!! I want to loose another 10 pounds and fit into my prom dress better~!

just thought I would share my (so far) success story with you all~

WOW you go girl!That Gym Teacher needs their butt kicked for putting you down like that in front of the other kids!How humiliating,I would have reported her to the head master or who ever will do something about it!
I was overweight at school too and teased,I often say to myself if I could go back in time with what I know now!
It is just a stage in your life that will pass and what those other nasty kids or false friends say to you mean nothing after you leave school!
It sounds like you have a really nice boyfriend who is suportive and kind.You keep up with the determination to get fit and loose weight and achieve your goals.
In 5yrs your life will be great,and whats going on now wont mean anything!
GOOD LUCK!!!!

You are such a sweetheart! I know you can do this because you have come so far through all of that! I was the same way but I was in catholic school up to 8th grade! But the kids in public school were not bad to me and i lost a lot of weight! I think it depends on a lot when it comes to schools and the way the kids are raised with the morals! But you are doing so good and I am so proud of you! I wish I could get to 200 well actually 199 I want back into my 14's at least by summer! But I want you to know you have put me in the right frame of mind sharing your story! I want to thank you so much!

Thanks, you guys~
and good luck on your weight loss too, redneckwoman66!
gotta never give up

wah~ the prom is so close and I havent' lost a pound this week at all~ O_O
i seem to be stuck at 177 now~ and I wanted to get down to 169 by March 18th~ I'm eating right and everything! sept i had some cookies yesterday on vday <__<... is it possible for some cookies to mess everything up like this!?! ;___;
I've even been working out twice as much as I've ever done! (3 hours a day 5 days a week plus hour long step aerobics class and yoga once a week)

seeing no results just a/b kills me after all the hard work I've done~ it's gotten me pretty down...

hi kasumineko . i know how you feel. i think i felt the same way before. hey its still 2 weeks before your prom. you can still lose those pounds. eating oatmeal helps. hey there's a lot of things that you should prepare..like your dress, your make-up, your skin ( you should glow!), and your hair (stunning hairstyle will do the trick.). i'm sure everything will turn out fine.

i really wish that its going to be the best prom night for you.

I'm actually getting my dress today! =D
I got my shoes and everything the other day and they're so pretty they light up! (and they're actually in my avatar o.o)
and I have appointments to get my hair and everything else done at day b4/day of the prom~ I feel so spoiled :P

I'm trying real hard to look good for prom since when I go there I'll be seeing people I haven't seen since I was 250+ pounds! all my old friends from when I used to go to public school will maybe be there~ I wonder if they will recognize me without half the fat i used to have.

But I'm sure it'll be fun~ I have the best date in the world to go with~ =D

I seem to be stuck around 178-177.. noooo! again I am stuck at a weight like this~ I just got off of a plateau a few weeks ago at around 193 and now another one?!?! I dunno what causes these... plateaus... but they are evil I tell you! O_O ...right before my prom like this!!~

oh well~ ^_^ I got my prom dress!! it's a size 12 but it fits pretty good! it's just a half inch tight on me~ but I have a good figure for my weight so I dont' care~ =P (okkei I cheated~ I got a waist cincher at fredricks of hollywood~ hahahaha!!! so what? <.<) but I am happy with my dress and everything~

I've also been tryign my new strategy for dieting better... it's very gross but it works~ it's basically just chewing the food and spitting it out if you think you've had too much. I dunno if this is bad or not~ but i tend to overeat alot =| so i don't think it is~

I just can't believe I fit into a size 12! O_o..... wooo....

today was my weigh in day~

I WAS 2 POUNDS LIGHTER!!!
(down to 175 lbs!!!!)

this has totally made my day (or my week!!)
like my week of hard work was totally worth it. I think I'm starting to get off of my plateau and it feels like such a relief after those months of the same weight!!

alright, you are rockin' up the weight-loss forums!! I see your ticker is at 75 lbs out of 122 - that is so excellent, you're more than half way done! I bet all of your old friends' jaws will just DROP when they see your cute new self

Have fun at your prom, Kasumi, knock 'em all dead

I'm feeling pretty great tonight (aerobics class ALWAYS makes me feel great no matter what)~ I talked to my cousin and we've made plan to go to the prom together on a double date thing~ we might get our nails and hair done together too~ so that made me happy!
oh yeah~ my mom told me that I could buy some new clothes tomorrow~ new clothes! finally! b/c my workout pants were falling off of me in aerobics class~
so I go to my fav clothing store and check out the size charts to see what size I'd be... (you wont' believe this... well, I didn't anyways)... I'm a medium!!! not a 1X, not a L... but a nice little... Meduim!! I retook my measurements and it's true... medium... wow... BIG accomplishment for me.
I sit here in shock~ .....

and I cannot wait to slide on my size 12 dress for prom.

yayyy!
whee!

I'm actually happy all suddenly like this~

the last few days have been fun. I made good friends with my cousins (since they just moved in across the street) and I've been hanging with them lately~

mom finally bought be new jeans at american eagle the other day~ they fit so great and they're really cute. Only problem is.. they're a size 12 but I feel like they're a size 18.. I dunno~ I look in the mirror and dont' see a size 12 like the tag says... I feel huge in them~ even though they fit me so great!

I feel really bad tonight too.. I went to a birthday party and had a few chips, greasy chicken fingers, and some ice cream... >_<
I feel like I've blown all my hard work! And I didnt' even get to work out today like I wanted...

(funny story)
in my gym you need a key pass to get into the gym on weekends. You have to hold the pass thingi up to this light thing and it unlocks the doors for a few seconds. well.. I lost my old keypass and asked the girl at the gym if I could have a new one. she said "I cant' give you a new one righ now, but I can give you somebody's old pass"
I told her sure, as long as it gets me in and I took it.
~weekend comes~
so I get ready for the gym and head off with my new keypass and mom drops me off as usual. I go up to the door as my mom starts to drive off... the keypass was shut off and it wouldn't let me in..!! so I tried to get my mom's attention befor she drove away... but she drove away anyways... so I ran down the parking lot wavibng my arms yelling at her "MOOOOOM!!!!"
........vrooom... there she goes! I was stuck locked out of my gym a few miles away from my home with nobody around and nowhere to go....
Also.. mom usually doesn't come back to get me until 2-3 hours later!! there was no way I was going to stand in the freezing cold for that long... so I tried to walk home...it was horrible... since my town has no sidewalks and the side of the road is a steep hill... I had to walk sideways the whole way home.
those big trucks rode by and it felt like they blew me away down the hill each time... >__<.. no to mention it was freezing!! I practically turned blue.
meh... I walked all the way home within a little less than 2 hours...
wah! i did it!

every1 tells me i should get a cell phone...

well, my mom was very upset with the gym ppl who gave me that pass that didn't work... but she's going to talk to them and get everything fixed~! =)

i am sos orry that happened to you i think you have endured a lot to lose and i hope that size 12 dress makes you so happy prom night it helps you forget the hard times!

have a great prom anna. enjoy.

hey anna..just wanna say this... you know what..you are a great writer! i just hope you realize that you have the talent.
im actually a writer (i do that for a living)