I binge as well. I've only recently admitted to myself that if I don't have some way to monitor myself, I have no control over my eating. I love food, and I'd like to learn how to have a positive relationship with it one day, as I want to be a chef and dietician. I want to learn how to eat to live, and enjoy it in moderation, but have control over my intake. In the past I've binge-eaten in times of stress and boredom, but also just because I wanted to satisfy some inner craving for something...I can't explain. Either way, it has been hurting me since I was a child. I was not an overweight kid, but it started catching up with me in high school. I've lost a major amount of weight before, but never really kept it under control. Just last week I finally just admitted that my eating is disordered, and it's not normal. I admitted to myself that if I don't use some kind of crutch, that I will continue to binge eat. Therefore, I bought a small notebook to keep with me in my purse and take everywhere with me. After I eat anything, no matter when, where, or what, I write it down, along with the amount. I don't lie in this book, I divulge every little detail, that way I can hold myself accountable. It really helps me to keep my eating under control, I tell you! It's an amazing tool for me. It's discreet enough that I can jot things down in it and people never ask about it, so I haven't had to tell anyone about it. I do it for myself, so that I can get down to a comfortable and healthy weight, and so that I will continue to keep it off. When I get the urge to eat outside of my regimented meals and snacks that I allow myself, the book helps to remind me that I've had enough to eat, so that I can set about distracting myself from the desire to eat. It's been helpful and I recommend that anyone with compulsive overeating or bingeing issues try it out.

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I am a serious binger. I too think about food from the minute I get up until the minute I go to bed. I am not hungry right now, and actually pretty full from the cheese and crackers I just downed and I am still wondering if there isn't something I am craving enough to go ahead and eat it. I am a salty snack/food lover. Chips are my enemy!!! And I love potatoes with lots of salt and butter. I am diabetes and a heart attack waiting to happen. And yet I cannot seem to find it within myself to do something about it. I have been looking at the Dr. Bernstein diet but it is so freakin expensive that I just don't think financially I can do it. I no there is no magic pill but I feel like I need to start with something that will show really promising results in order to continue and not fall off the wagon. Not to mention I am lazy. I can think of a million things to do rather than exercise. Especially now that it's winter and cold. I just feel like rock bottom is not something I will reach until something serious happens. Why oh why don't I care enough about myself to do something about this!!!?!?!?!?!?

Hi Everyone,

Really haven't been a binge eater until probably a few years after kids. I know the reason, not in a happy marriage, not happy w/ my house --- Really not happy with me! I have allowed the lack of interest from my husband to effect me. Our sex life has gone down the crapper, for a while now. Maybe for about 10 yrs. I know that has really affected me. Sure u men don't usually hear this, but he was the one not interested. That's when I was pretty hot looking, about 140lbs, 5'7". U know at night, feet a little cold and you snuggle next to him and he jumps away as if u just put an ice cube down hiis back, yeh that's his reaction. So, yeh, I have internalized this to mean, must be me, what's wrong w/ me that he doesn't want to have sex w/ me. I guess as a woman,to me, that really feels like rejection and I have knocked the shit out of myself for it. My self esteem/self worth shouldn't be based on someone else, but it is and that's where my rut started and still is. Of course doesn't help that I opened a biz and went into about 300,000 dollars in debt and might never see any of this money back. So, besides my regular 40hr week job, also have this biz that depresses the crap out of me. So, since I am miserable, all I want to do at night, that's usually when I am home w/ hubby, is eat! Oh, I know it's not the trigger foods, it's the trigger situation that sets me off. Looking for comfort food. Doesn't matter if it's not in the house, because I will just keep trying different things until I get the comfort (which I usually don't) or just eat until I resign myself to bed.

Maybe I am not so much of a binger, but an emotional eater, meaning, "No, I wont eat a box of donuts or bag of cookies in one seating, but more like will just keep looking for something to eat to comfort me.

Really having a tough time w/ the eating and the emotions. Wish I could just have a week to me w/out anyone around to set me off. I know, why do I allow them to set me off? Has to do w/ me. I feel right now, I am really no better off than someone that uses drugs, drinks, whatever their viice to deal. Just wish my way of dealing was healthier. Funny, not that I keep these things in. I have talked to my hubby until I am blue in the face. Problem is there is no change from him and divorce to me is not an option.

Opening this biz, I thought would help financially. Looked at similiar businesses w/ the same demographics and my numbers aren't even close to the other businesses. maybe these people lied but all 3 said they were actually able to pay about $40,000 bucks back in loans the first year. Yeh, so, I am just paying the bills, no extra. so,nothing but a f'ing pain in the arse and more time away from my kids. Oh, yeh, this helped fiinancially. Now, w/ the money we invested, don't u think my hubby would care and want to strategize about this or even ask how it's going???? Nope. I mean, it's soooooo sad to me. If I didn't have kids, I'd just get in a car and drive and reinvent myself. Leave it allll behind. I know I wont be able to get my wt. under control until I deal w/ these situations and maybe except life the way it is. Can't even focus at work.

I am sooooo struggling here to get through each day w/ a smile for the rest, especially my kids.

Hi,
I have been a binge eater my whole life,did'nt know their was a name for it. I don't have to have a reason and I don't have to be hungry--most of the time I'm not hungry. Food is my friend,it's the one thing it's their for me. This thinking is what has cause me to eat my way up to 300 lbs. My top weight was 398 but I'm at 300 now, and looking for some way to get a hold on this demon. Any advice or help would be nice. Thanks for reading.

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Hey.

Former binge eater here. The weight piles on so quickly when you binge frequently.

I would eat everything that was in my fridge/cabinets in one sitting. Everything I could find. I've eaten cake-mix right out of the box if it was the last thing left, lol. I even ate expired food if there was nothing else to choose from at the time... (shame on me...) After that, I would go to the store and buy even more to eat. And, unfortunately, I would also buy fast food on the way home.

I feel your pain everyone.

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