Cate's journey-join me - Page 62

Nans68 · #**916** (**permalink**) April 2nd, 2008, 05:05 AM

Hi Cate

I am so glad to hear you are feeling better and enjoying life with family and friends....like you said that is important. It would be wonderful to meet up...."maybe" one day....who knows stranger things have happen. I have made so many wonderful friendships since moving here and do way too many coffee get togethers.....it is something I didn't do alot of at my old address. It's funny how the dynamics can be so very different from one suburb to the next.
Anyway to change the subject I think I will go back on the Cohens plan and stick with it for a fortnight and see what happens....I think it is the only way to go.
I won't go on about it, I need to get to bed now....I had an early morning start and have not stopped all day.
Take care.
Sam

cate · #**917** (**permalink**) April 2nd, 2008, 03:35 PM

Hi Sam, I didn't get much sleep last night as I had both compression stockings on, with cotton wadding where he had treated my veins. He treated different ones on both legs & I have to leave the wadding in one more night, roll my stockings down, take it out, roll them back up & leave them both on until Sunday! That means I must wash with them on until then. After that I only need to have them on for a further 3 days, not nights. At least I don't have to wear them to Melbourne week-end after this one.
I sleep on my side with one leg on top of the other & the wadding was in between them both. Not good.
The mountains are covered in snow this morning & the wind is icy. My poor little mum really feels the cold. We are sitting in front of the fire at the moment, her reading, me typing of course.
My husband drove me to Launceston yesterday & has been really thoughtful. It poured all day & I was grateful that I didn't have to walk back to the car as I usually do after my treatment. I have to walk half an hour before driving home & usually I walk to Medicare to get my rebate & then walk all the way back uphill. It usually takes me an hour or so. He kept my mum company which is nice. He even went into shops with her which is something for him as he hates shopping.
Mum goes back to Vic tomorrow & doesn't think she will come over to Tassie again as it's very tiring for her. We will have to plan a regular visit from now on. We'll have to go on the ship though( I wouldn't like doing what she does to get here-bus, train, bus, plane!) so will keep an eye out for winter specials. Maybe we'll go to see her in August & fit in another footy match as well. The Spirit of Tasmania have a half price winter special on at the moment I noticed & they used to discount even the deluxe cabin which is nice. I might go have a look.
I hope everyone is happy & getting healthier by the day. Cheers for now, Cate

Nans68 · #**918** (**permalink**) April 3rd, 2008, 02:08 AM

Hi again Cate

How long have you got till your legs get better? At least the weather has cooled for you so that should relieve the stress of it. It sounds lovely where you live snow on the mountains..wow!! what a view. And rain as well.
At least your Mum has made the effort to come visit you, it mustn't be easy for her doing all that travel.
Gosh I have to stop hogging your diary and go visit my own, I just don't have much to record, but i'll head over there now and jot something down.
I wonder where Sal, Esthee and Moi have gone?
I hope you have a better nights sleep.
Sam

cate · #**919** (**permalink**) April 3rd, 2008, 02:31 AM

Hi Sam, I've been wondering where they've gone as well. It's so quiet isn't it?
It's lovely that my mum makes so much effort for me. We had a lovely day today. I'm very tired tonight. We both are. We went to Sheffield & it was very cold. The snow looked magnificent though on the mountains. It is beautiful here. I love it.
I have 3 more treatments on my legs I think. It was my decision to have them done & it was mainly for looks, rather than relieving pain. I do want to be able to wear a dress or shorts in Summer. It's worth it.
I'll be back Sat now as tomorrow is going to be flat out. Cheers for now, Cate

Esthee · #**920** (**permalink**) April 3rd, 2008, 04:57 AM

Hi Cate,

It's so good to hear that you are feeling so much better. Sounds like you are really enjoying your mother's visit. I'm so jealous, it sounds heavenly where you live

Snow on the mountains and rain and a warm fire. I'm more of a cold weather, mountain type person. Sounds like Tasmania is the way to go

Sorry I've been a bit quiet lately. I had to work in the office everyday the whole of last week and the internet connection is WAY slow. They have live meetings with the office in the US the whole day, so even coming to this site is difficult.

Enjoy the weather and good luck with the stockings.

Kannadew · #**921** (**permalink**) April 4th, 2008, 04:45 PM

Hi Cate

Sounds like you are feeling a little better about not taking the medication... I do hope that you will be able to sort out some of your health concerns through the alternative routes you have described. It would be nice to not have the constant "up & down-ness" wouldnt it?!

You said you have 3 more treatments on your legs... how long do each of those last? Are we talking weeks or months until you are COMPLETELY finished? I bet you CANT WAIT!

I CANT WAIT ... for 3 weeks! Thats all it is till I get to Tassie! OMG! I have soo much to do before then! Speaking of which ....better get on and do it!

Blessya
Kannadew

cate · #**922** (**permalink**) April 5th, 2008, 03:08 AM

Esthee- So good to hear from you! It is beautiful here! I, too, love the cooler weather, love the cuddling up etc. Summer is taxing. I enjoy the long days in Summer but also love to experience the difference between the seasons. I would have trouble living where it is hot almost all of the time. Winter clothes are great!
Kannadew- I am so looking forward to your visit!! Re the veins-
I have a review ap't on the 16th of April (no stockings); a treatment on the 23rd of April (hopefully not too intensive) & possibly the last treatment on the 7th of May. I'm not sure if that will be it as it's hard to tell at this stage. The veins are quite bruised but not painful anymore. It's really that the stockings are so uncomfortable to sleep in. Just one is not so bad but having both is really uncomfortable. It was my choice to have this treatment & I do not regret it. I just hope they do not return one day.
Last night-
My husband was a model in a fashion parade!!
Our local golf club held a fashion parade & my darling husband was asked to model & agreed. This is coming from someone who just hates shopping or trying on clothes. He did such a good job. I was really proud of him. He had to go into a couple of stores & try on clothes & ended up buying some of them as they looked so good. We have been together 37 years this year & I think he is so cute!
The fashion parade was very successful & had a good turnout.
During the parade I noticed this stunning top which I really loved. 4 stores were featured & 2 of the shop owners I would classify as personal friends. I went up to the owner of this top & asked quietly if I could try it on, which I then did. It suited me so much that I went looking for my husband to show him & in the process, most of the people there saw me in it. I couldn't believe how nice it looked. I have never had so many positive comments made about me in all of my life as I had last night, both before I tried on this top & afterwards. It was really a buzz! My husband when I found him, just said "Wow", I told him how much it was & he told me I had better buy it, which I then did. Later I had so many people come up to me to say how "stunning" I looked in it & that they hoped I bought it. WOW! It made me feel a million dollars! I really felt like I was more confident & comfortable in my new skin last night.
Now I need an occasion to wear it. It is long, black & silky with a beautiful silvery trim, beautifully lined, with a matching stand-up collar & matching buttons. An Asian influence I would say & very stunning. I also think I may have to buy something else to wear under it. I'll show you, Kannadew when you're here! OMG, it is so glamorous! It makes me look so slim. About 5 people asked me who had modelled it & none of us could remember & they all said it suited me more! I'm still so stunned!
My mum has gone home now & life will get back to normal, whatever that is. I have put my thinking cap back on to earn some money & have been putting out feelers.
I have had so much trouble getting on to this forum that I think I might scream if this does not post. I had better quit now & see how I go. Bye for now, cate

cate · #**923** (**permalink**) April 6th, 2008, 04:35 PM

I don't know what's been going on. I just seem to be busy, without doing much!
I feel fine most of the time though, which is good.
Sat I dropped my LH off at golf,went to the local market on my own, bought some vegies only, had a few chats......
went home, did some cooking & lots of housework, had a nice dinner with my LH, with a bottle of red wine & watched tv.
Yesterday we slept in, pottered about (?) & went to the races in the afternoon & caught up with lots of friends. A woman I know not very well was really drunk &, literally in my face about how I look. "I'm so proud of you!" I always think she looks nice. She went on & on, at one stage was a bit teary. She said she saw how my husband had looked at me in the long black top at the fashion parade. She kept grabbing hold of me & dragging me away from everyone to have heart-to-hearts.
I must admit to you now. This is why I don't have many "girl-friends". I have trouble coping with a lot of the girly stuff. I felt exhausted after this encounter. I like my personal space (physically anyway) & I hate offending people so ecncounters like this, whilst obviously well-meaning I battle with. I sound really mean saying this & I don't think I am. I am an affectionate friend but don't gush over people.
It's also hard when you are really allergic to so many perfumes. When drunk most women keep re-applying them. Most people take offence when you have to say that you are sorry but have to move away because of your asthma. I have tried so many different ways of saying it but they all seem to take offence.
Now, most of the time, I just try to get away & go outside to get my breath back. Yesterday I kept being followed & grabbed & held up close! I think people think you are really saying you don't like their perfume when really it becomes very difficult just to breathe.
Today we are having an at-home day. LH is cooking & I am going to start getting things ready to sell on eBay. I am going to the shed first to sort stuff out.
I didn't weigh this morning but must tomorrow. I really want to get an exercise machine of some sort but will sell something first. I would like to make a rule where I do not spend until I sell some stuff. That would be fun! Selling stuff I don't want. I am going to start with a 3 piece silk outfit, size 24!
Cheers for now, cate

Nans68 · #**924** (**permalink**) April 6th, 2008, 09:13 PM

Hi Cate

I enjoyed reading your post it gave me a giggle. I did reply to your other post but something was going on with this web address, I think you mentioned it yourself.
I might actually pm you the rest.

Sam

cate · #**925** (**permalink**) April 7th, 2008, 12:03 AM

Hi Sam, I have replied to your pm & do agree with you whole-heartedly. I just keep writing in my diary, even though hardly any of it is do with the actual Cohens program any more. It's just that I am in the habit now. I'm glad I made you giggle. I lovethat!
Cheers Cate

Nans68 · #**926** (**permalink**) April 7th, 2008, 06:13 AM

Hi Cate
Thanks for lending an ear. Yes the diary posting helps me get through the day to day events even if isn't about weight and food.
Sam

cate · #**927** (**permalink**) April 8th, 2008, 02:46 AM

While on Cohens I was able to focus on losing weight & getting healthy. My mind was on other things rather than obsessing about food. I felt so positive about myself. Now I am back to thinking too much about it & the old demons are starting to creep back. I feel so much better when I am only eating the original Cohens food but seem to be losing my ability to focus. It is so frustrating & also means I am losing some of my self-respect . I felt really strong & focussed before. I know that I need to exercise as that makes me feel so much better but am having so much trouble finding the energy. Sounds crazy I know.
I am also having trouble with regularity & feel bloated & uncomfortable.
This stage is by far the hardest. Maintenence. Aaaaarrggghhhhhh!!!!
That's enough whingeing.
I'm off to have a look about. Might come back later, cheers, Cate.

cate · #**928** (**permalink**) April 9th, 2008, 04:44 AM

My day has been really good & I am really looking forward to the 5kg challenge, starting Monday. I'm also taking inspiration from Lauren's post in her diary today. I must focus on my positive achievements.
I went for a good walk with my LH today & have had a very physical day & feel much better for it.
I'll be back tomorrow I think as I feel tired now, Cheers to all, cate

Annie_Lusion · #**929** (**permalink**) April 10th, 2008, 03:58 AM

Hiya Cate,

so glad you are on board with challenge...yay!!

You are sounding much happier, so happy for you.

Will put my thinking cap on re: challenge and start a new thread where we can post all our losses...lots and lots of losses...yeeee hawwwwww!!!!

Chat soon

Annie Lusion

cate · #**930** (**permalink**) April 10th, 2008, 04:07 AM

I am regaining my healthy perspective on life. I don't know why I get so bogged down & negative. I have always been such a positive, happy person. I hate to blame hormones & Menopause but am really starting to think that's what it is.
I have been outside for most of the today. I've gardened, wandered around with my LH & have felt much more like my usual self. I even jogged!!
I have been almost scared to jog. I think I thought I might break something. As a teenager I lived for sport & loved to run. I have been overweight for so long I really thought I would hurt myself if I did anything too strenuous. I ran uphill!!!
Nothing hurt, nothing broke, I didn't have a heat-attack. WOW!
I am really looking forward to our week-end in Melbourne. It is going to be so much fun. We are going with very good friends & are catching up with really good friends. How nice is that?
I realise that I have been concentrating on everything negative, instead of the many positives that are in my life. I must stop worrying about earning money. I have done so all of my life & I am almost 55! We live in a beautiful home in a beautiful part of the world. We have great kids, wonderful grand-children & great friends. Doh! I just need to remind myself, constantly that there are way more positive things in my life, than there are negative. I do this to myself.
I got a call today from an old friend. She was going to visit me on Saturday but we will be in Melb. I forget that I have friends who want to see me. I am so self-critical & sensitive. Every now & then I get out my address book to remind myself that I do have friends. Sounds sad I know! It's lack of self-esteem I know.
One thing I do know is you get much more attention when you lose weight. It's hard to see that in a positive light. I wish I could see it in a more positive light but I see it as a shallow thing. Being slim does not make you a better person.
I have had a bit of truth serum this evening. I find I cannot drink much alcohol anymore, which, I think is a good thing. It goes straight to my head. I ate some extra protein, before but....
I hope everyone has a lovely week-end. I'm ready to lose that 5kg, starting Monday, after my week-end in Melbourne, cheers, Cate