I'm too tired tonight to detail my day so will come back tomorrow. Good day, but been driving for hours in total! zzzzzzzz, Cate (over 500 kms already this week)

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

Crocodile Infested swamps Cate? whats going on there? Hmmm I could have a field day with analogy's and metaphors etc... but will leave the psychobabble to someone else! hehehe

So glad to see that you are still enjoying your walking and that all in all things seem to be going well!

Blessya
Kannadew

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Started 21/5/07 Goal 1: 99.9kg
Goal 2:79.9kg Goal 3:72kg G4:62kg

Hi Kannadew, I know, I know! I tell you it was exhausting! I will not even try to analyse that dream. It was so vivid!
I have had a full on day today with the grand-kids. Our mechanic fixed my car & our son & DIL's 2 cars so we spent the day together up at our home. I had felt like a good dose of grandkids & got a 7hr remedy today. I'm tired though from just sitting around doing nothing.
I'm really tired again tonight so will not hang about, cheers for now, Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

It seems that whenever I am full of beans & optimism it is usually followed by a bit of a slump. Sometimes a big slump but, at the moment, it's just a minor slump. I really don't feel like doing anything.
It's a foggy, horrible looking day. I need to do some food shopping really but may not. I am spending all week-end in Launceston so it can wait until Monday I think.
I always have to remind myself that these minor blues are a temporary thing. They do pass. It's the price I pay for being a usually up person. You can't stay up 7 days a week, every week of the year.
I will go for lots of walks this week-end, rather than stay inside watching our son & my LH playing 8-ball. They will be very long days. I'll take my small back-pack & sneakers.
I just had a look at Fit Day but I don't think I want to go down that path of counting every calorie I eat/expend. It's hard work & very time consuming. I think I will start getting into a routine of so many days per week of Cohen's or at least most days Cohen's for breakfast & lunch. I am maintaining my weight without any variation at the moment which is good. When on Cohen's 100% I drop to GW but go up 2.5kgs when following maintenance guidelines. I think this makes sense really because of the extra quantities. I know that I can drop them off really quickly whenever I want to, which is great.
ok- I'm waffling on about nothing so will scoot, cheers, Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

I finished reading "French Women Don't Get Fat" by Mireille Guiliano & highly recommend it. I think it's an enjoyable read & will help me get food/life into perspective.
I have had a fairly productive day after all & have got stuck into my housework, whilst listening to music.
My tax cheque just arrived & I should go bank it but...... nah. It can wait until Monday as well. I might just go buy that exercise bike then too.
Meanwhile I'm going to put my feet up & have a herbal tea (pot) & read a novel. My week-end is going to be flat out and will make up for the comparative lack of exercise today. Cheers, Cate(feeling more cheerful!)

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

Hi Cate

Since its Friday afternoon and almost finish time, I thought I would pop in and say hello and thank you for your great posts in my journal. Its always great to come in on Monday and see yours and Becks happy message.

I am glad its the weekend. Works been hectic and the weekends are so much fun.

The weight loss is still going slow. Not sure why although I weighed my meat yesterday and it was under weight from when I bagged it. Not sure if this has been happening lots but am going to check my meat everytime now. I had bagged the chicken at 110g but when I weighed it, it came out at 101g. Very frustrating. My boss said that can happen when it defrost, some of the water goes.

Anyway Cate, must fly. The phone is ringing. Have a great weekend.

Cheers,

Vicky

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I can't believe I thought I was tired before the week-end because now I am so tired I have cried 3 times today! The week-end was successful, 8-ball wise, with my OS getting in to the State team but I am so miserable today. My back/neck/shoulder have been aching for almost 2 weeks(from a bush-walk?), getting slowly worse, but today I can hardly move for the pain. I have such a head-ache!
I have been doing so much driving/concentrating in the last week & the slouching forward watching 8-ball all week-end has compounded it.
Our wood-heater had a piece fallen out of it when we got home late Sat night & we couldn't get it back together so consequently the house is cold. I have an electric heater going but that's not doing much. My LH is at work & our friendly, useful welder neighbour is flat out & can't come to have a look. I rang the wood heater people & they suggested getting new fire bricks & a new piece of metal to support them but basically weren't much help.
I went shopping this morning, got some fire bricks & fought tears. I called in to our son's place & he had visitors & had to go shopping afterwards too. He is going to come up about 4, after picking his OS up off the school bus, to see if he can get it together for me & get the fire going. I had another go putting the new fire bricks in when I got home but it hurt too much & I couldn't do it & ended up in tears again. I'm unco. at the best of times.
I won't share my misery any more. I'll be back tomorrow. I am going to ring someone to see if I can book in for a strong massage. Ouch!!! Sorry I'm no use to anyone today, xo Cate

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Sorry Vicky! I didn't even say hello to you! I'm not normally rude. Please forgive me, xo Cate

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Just thought I would pop in to say I'm feeling a lot better tonight. Our OS, DIL & 2 gk's called in & OS put the bricks in the fire, got it back together, got it going & I felt much better straight away. I think I was over-tired mainly. He is too. When my LH got home we shared a bottle of Andrew Garrett sparkling burgundy. He had an unpleasant experience at work so we shared our woes & sat & had a relaxing drink in front of the fire.
I have not rung about my neck yet somust do that in the morning.
I am going to search for a way of sending Paula Wriedt a message of support. I had heard a rumour that she attempted suicide today, after a marital rift & I find that really sad. Sam Newman's disgusting snide remark last week would not have helped if she has been battling depression. I am so glad my husband has stopped watching the Footy Show. Sam Newman disgusts him also. I am very lucky that I have such a good, kind hearted husband.
Good night folks, xo Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

Hi Cate,
So glad to hear you are feeling better but make sure you book that massage!!
You sound like you have a lovely husband. Make sure you cherish him because they are not all like that. I don't know who Sam Newman or Paula Wriedt are so can't comment on them but I'm sure I can imagine what sort of a man he is from your few comments. Poor lady. Some men just try to control through belittling and bullying (I know I married one of them). I was lucky I was strong enough and had plenty of support to escape. I'm sure if there was any way to get a message through it would be greatly appreciated by Paula Wriedt.
Take care and enjoy your heat
Beck

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Hi Beck, I am lucky to have such a nice husband. I don't take him for granted that's for sure. I sent a message to the Footy Show (Channel 9) saying we won't be watching the show again until Sam Newman is off it and I sent an email to Paula Wriedt, offering my support and wishing her a speedy recovery. She is one of our outstanding MP's in Tassie and I think she's inspirational to women, young and old. Apparently she has just recently separated from her husband. I hope she receives lots of support and love.
I have decided instead of just thinking about doing things such as this from now on I'm going to do them. It doesn't take much effort. I am not going to turn intoone of those people who write to the papers about every subject known to man but if it matters to me I am going to register a protest or offer support. No-one knows how you feel unless you tell them.
My husband had a strange, unpleasant experience at work yesterday & I encouraged him to ring the fellow that upset him, which he did this morning. I told him that unless you tell people a) they won't be aware of how it affects you & b) won't change their behaviour. I was proud of him for doing it as has that often male trait of bottling things up rather than speaking out. Afterwards he was telling me that he was going to ask someone else about it & I suggested that he shouldn't dwelll on it but he said he was just curious to get another version and said " I'm so over it". It sounded so funny coming from him that I laughed out loud. 58 & cute!
My miseries have gone back to where they come from- the land of nod!
I decided not to go walking anyway as my shoulder is still hurting & it's best I don't carry a pack. I am going to go for a walk around our block though. I have promised myself that I will. I didn't want to go out to lunch with them as I need to re-focus after my week-end away eating take-aways. I shot up 2.5kgs over the w/e. I'll get rid of them quickly by concentrating. I don't want to go to Melb next week with any extra kgs as my nephew & his wife have not seen me since I lost my weight & I want to be feeling slim & proud of it! My sister who lives in Vic has not seen me yet either & hopefully I will be catching up with her too.
I'd better get up off my butt, go do the dishes etc & head off for a walk. Our block is 50 acres & over half of that is bush. It's hilly and rocky and we have lots of wild-life. It's funny but I'm aware of safety precautions even around our own block. If I fell & hit my head or something no-one would know where I was so I leave a note in the house & take my phone. Bush-walking in a group has taught me to be careful. Sometimes I think I'm too careful.
Probably my only major regret in life is not travelling when I was young but I was too scared of what might happen. Crazy! So what if something went wrong. It's called living. I can't change it though but I just have to live long enough to make up for it.
When I'm feeling good there's no shutting me up so I had better impose a self-censorship & go, cheers, Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

Well I ended up not going for a walk. My energy fizzled & I futzed around for the day & did very little. Last night we had 8-ball comp again, but it was not our turn to drive. It was a late night again though & today I feel very weary.
I ate a good hearty, healthy breakfast-eggs, tomato, mushrooms on crackers, followed by an orange but I just ruined it by eating 6 squares of chocolate. I seem to have been craving something sweet for about a week. Yesterday I ate a whole packet of sugar-free jubes which was not good for the ozone layer!
I must lose 3kgs in the next 7 days so will go back on plan 100% tomorrow.
I have some gardening to do which would be more fun than going for a walk on my own.
Last night at 8-ball I found out from a young player from the opposition's team that one of his team has had a really rough trot. I have known the guy for 20 years or so and his wife has completed Cohen's after seeing me & talking to me about it at a 50th birthday party earlier this year. Th poor guy- he's lost his sister, brother, mother & uncle within a few months of one another. We had a really good talk- about depression, counselling etc and it has left me feeling quite sad. I'm glad I was able to listen & empathise. His loss has been huge but talking about it helps. He is no longer ashamed of needing help which is great. His wife is absolutely lovely & I was looking forward to catching up with her soon at a wedding but now we cannot go. He said for us to come visit them at their home which I think I will do soon. She has lost as much weight as me and he is so proud of her.
We had booked in to a hotel to stay after this wedding in a few weeks but it now clashes with a major 8-ball competition that my LH has his heart set on winning, hopefully. They had changed the date but we did not know about the change. If my LH wins it (or is in the top 3) he will be competing at the Australian titles along with our 2 sons. I had better go & cancel the booking now that reminds me. The guy who's wedding we were going to was also in last night's opposition team so we told him we couldn't come. He was very disappointed but said we could come along to have a drink with them on the Sunday before they head off on their world trip/ honeymoon, which we will do.
August is usually a quiet time but this month is flat out. I've got 2 trips to Melbourne in the middle of everything else.
OK Cate- no more chocolate today. Our YS gave us lots of chocolate at the week-end which is too tempting. It's mostly dark chocolate too & delicious. I gave half of it to our OS but we still have lots. I'll have to find that strong will-power that I had last year.
I'm happy to see people joining in the game 'the person underneath". I make no apologies for stealing it. It's a bit of fun. Cheers for now, Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

After deciding that I would be strict for a week I got on the scales expecting to have lost at least .5 of a kilo, but instead I was another 1kg up.
The bad news is that's GW+5kgs! This is exactly what happened before. My weight steadies & then whammo!
I have been feeling a little shaky the last week for some reason & tight in the chest. I don't know if it's blood pressure or if it's just my asthma as that's been playing up with the foggy nights. I tried to get in to see my doc but she's booked out & only works Wed & Thu. Next week I'm in Melb then. I made an ap't for 2 weeks time. I thought I might be getting a chest infection. If I feel bad tomorrow I'll get in to see whoever's available.
I went in to my local town to pick up some library books & did a little shopping. I had run out of yoghurt, which simply is not allowed!
When I got back there was a message from the masseuse. I'm now booked in to see her tomorrow.
I decided to see how I would feel after some vigorous exercise so first of all planted my plants & then headed off, with my back-pack, for a walk around the block. 2 hours later I got back! I took some pruning shears & clippers & wore some riggers gloves & ended up clearing a lot of plants off our track. A lot of branches had come down on it & there is this pesky weed/shrub that I discovered I could pull out reasonably easily. I have come back absolutely exhausted, but feeling much better for the work-out!
Self-doubt has been creeping back in with me again. I must be careful. I would feel better if I had an enjoyable job to go to and didn't just feel like I am filling in the days aimlessly. If my LH was home more it wouldn't be so bad but I'm sick of my own company.
I'm breathing quite well after the walk. Maybe my lungs needed the exercise as well. I have drunk lots of water already today- 3x750ml water bottles. I hope the scales are kinder tomorrow, cheers for now, Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!

Within 5 minutes of my last post I got a call from my boss asking me to take on a new client. This time it's a woman, with children, who has a brain tumour. It's only 4 hours in total per week, spread over 3 days so isn't worth much financially unfortunately. I told my boss that I might be doing a course starting in September & she said she could 'wangle' it so they could put me through the same course. Now the one I was going to do was 3 days a week for 6 months(78 days). She thought their's was 1 day a month for a year(12 days) for the same course. The arithmetic is not good. It doesn't make any sense. I'll ring up the training provider tomorrow & find out how many days a week & for how long it really is.This boss is really nice. By wangling it I think she means making me permanent part-time & guaranteeing me enough hours to fit the criteria for the course. I had said that I was going to come talk to her soon & she said that would be good. She has some work in Launceston for me as well if I want it. It's food for thought.Speaking of food. My 2 hours of energetic walking & weeding has made me very hungry. I have eaten dinner but am still hungry 30 mins afterwards.I had better be down a little(weight-wise) tomorrow or I will be very crabby.I am very nervous about working with the new client. It sounds to me that I will be required to do an awful lot in one hour, including cooking. OMG. I hate cooking!The boss mentioned helping with showering, vacuuming, mopping, preparing vegies, cooking, getting casseroles in the freezer, doing some shopping....I think they need Superwoman!
Cheers, Cate

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Lost 36kgs 2007(Cohen's),now maintaining.
"Nothing tastes as good as slim feels".Mmm?No!Not even French Champagne!!