thankyou everyone who has posted in my diary for your beautiful words

im about to hop into the shower for a ritual 'pre cohens weigh in' scrub.

i dont even know why i do it but every time the night before a cohens weigh in i will shave my legs, have a full shower and scrub and wash blowdry my hair.

i guess it makes me feel confident the next morning

oh gosh im getting anxious...only 9 hours to go...im really scared i hope i get a good number...maybe i should pray before i go to bed tonight for some extra burning of the fat hehe

ill let everyone know the magic number tomorrow FINGERS CROSSED everyone!(even ur toes damnit!!!)

xx

OMGSH i just wrote the longest post EVER and then i accidently hit my mouse and the whole friggen thing was deleted ARRGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

okay so here goes AGAIN! damnit!
I walked into the clinic today, i looked and felt SLIM! i thought i would of lost 5 kilos EASY..i LOOKED like i had lost 5 kilos easy! Bodies and weight are such a weird thing!but i only lost 3.4 kgs! (and i didnt deviate either!!)

The thing is though, our perceptions of ourselves are so so different to how our bodies tell people. i have a friend who is a lot shorter then me with skinny legs and a little belly...yet she weighs 66!! if you would of asked me how much i thought she weighed..i would of said 60!...
now look at me for example...i stepped on those scales this morning thinking i weighed about 71-72..not because i wanted to see those numbers....but because i genuinely thought looking in the mirror i weighed that much!

This really made me think about the weight cohens set for me and my own idea of how much i should weigh...
when cohens told me my goal weight was between 67-70 i was like WHAT ill still be a fatty then??!!??!! but looking at me now...only 4.7 kilos away from 70 i really think i was taking it too vainly wanting to be 65 ..AND considering our bodies still shrink after cohens and ill be returning to my routine gym workouts ill still be changing in shape and chances are ill be still going down in clothes sizes so i have re-adjusted my ticker to my lower end cohens weight and when i hit around the 70 kilo mark ill decide when to order refeed (if im ravenously hungry and wanting to chew my arm off at 70 then refeed it is..if by 70 im still fine and dandy ill continue to about 68 before starting refeed)

So these are the progressions of weight loss over the last 16 weeks.

Started 17/11/2006 at 99.7 KG
15/12/2006 (4wks) = 89.7 (10 kg lost)
12/01/2007 (8wks) = 84.1 (5.6 kg lost)
09/02/2006 (12 wks)= 78.1 (6 kg lost)
09/03/2007 (16 wks)= 74.7 (3.4kg lost)

altogether 25 kilos lost in 16 weeks!! Mind you i got a bit pissed off at 3.4kg but my consultant god bless her reassured me that now were getting into the stages of the old body fat that has been in my body the longest so it might be a little harder to shift damn fat stores hahaha

BUT she said that definately DEFINATELY i will be done with cohens in 6 weeks (including refeed if im a lucky ducky! ) so im really happy and excited with that!
PLUS after my appointment i went into myer and tried on a GORGEOUS slim fitting grey sweater dress SIZE TWELVE and it was from the 'miss shop' department too...no more shopping in the big girl sections for this little lady!
and and and to make the day better i had my first ever uni presentation today and totally aced it.top marks across the board...its like my birthday today or something! i am really floating on air today!

OH also does anyone know where i can get some good but not expensive digital scales from? i dont want body fat analyses or all that jazz, just some reliable battery operated with 100 gram increments? (im going to be weighing every friday from now and ill need it for refeed!)

So to all you cohenites who think ' that couldnt be me'..YES IT CAN! i am living proof...the weight might not come off as quickly or in all the right places as you would like (i have learned this the hard way haha ) but just keep going! one step, one meal, one size at a time!!!!!

Happy Losing! xx

Fatcat, I got my digital scales from Big W. They weren't expensive and they weigh in 100gm increments. I use them everyday, and am really pleased with them. Well done on the loss to date. Only 6 weeks to go, yahoo, I figure I've got about 8 weeks but am hoping for less of course .
Lauren

Thanks for the advice lauren i just saw that target will be having a big home wares sales next week so might wait and see what they have ..

ooh 8 weeks! hehe i will keep my slimming fingers crossed for you let us know how u go!

caroline xx

not much on my end today except for at around 4 oclock i started feeling really sick and woozy and couldnt see properly and thought i was going to vomit, went for a nap to fix it and woke up 2 hours later, had an apple and felt a little better...really weird as that hasnt happened before! the only thing i did different today was have low fat cottage cheese for my lunch option (i usually have mozarella)...

going to cut out my cheese option for the next few weeks and see what it does to the scales this friday and next..then i will know for sure if this was one of the contributing factors to a small loss last month (as last month i was eating my cheese option about 3-4 times a week and cheese can retain fluid)

Happy Losing everyone xx

Belated Birthday wishes Caroline (21) you are are so young hope you had a wonderful day.

I know exactly what you mean i am in the same boat as you and have not been as vigilant with my measures and I have deviated during our move and it is hard to get back on track but I have, I enjoy fitting into my small clothes far too much to revert to old habits but it is a struggle.

Try and hang in there I am into day 8 of refeed and even though it is more food it is the same food and i am getting tired of it I want to eat out again I don't mean silly like before but even to just have a coffee with friends......sorry about the winge I should be cheering you up .

At my 12 week weigh in I only lost 2kg due to the house move I deviated and this is the outcome - but since refeed I have lost over 2kg so I am hoping that will inspire me to make it through my 17 days of refeed.

So take care and stay with it Cohen's is still the quickest and best weight loss I have ever achieved with any one.

By the way I haven't been posting as before and my ticker has disapperared and can't seem to get it up again I have lost 15kg and want to display it any suggestions

Sam

Hi sam!
thankyou very much for the warm wishes and dont worry you didnt depress me at all! anyone can have a rant with me in my diary hehe its what its here for!

the only thing that angered me with my 16 week weigh in is that if i had known that eating my cheese option so much would have that effect on my weightloss then i wouldnt of done it at all! it was just the easy option because i didnt want to bring fish or chicken to uni with me, but now i do and i guess the scales will tell us tomorrow and next friday! (weighing weekly from now )
as with your ticker...maybe you should edit your signature so its all clear (nothing in the box) then try to copy and paste the bb code once more? other then that im pretty computer retarded so thats the best advice i can give!

As for whats been happening in my world this week, well i bought snazzy new digital scales from the big target home sale this morning...it was 44.99 REDUCED FROM 89.99 so i had to get them! when i came home my mum was 'oohing' and 'aahing' over them, then said 'well lets see if they work then shall we??' (she has a set of tanita solar powered digital scales that i dont trust hence the reason i bought new scales for me- im such a paranoid kitty!)
SO ANYWAY seeing that im not weighing myself till tomorrow morning i wanted to check them out and mum was all for it.....she got THREE DIFFERENT READINGS ARRGHHH wtfff????? first the scales read 97.6...then she hopped off.then on again...this time 98.0...then she hopped off..this time 97.5...ARRRGGGHHHH what is going on! i am really pissed off now...and to make things worse she started rubbing it in that her scales didnt go up and down. so now i dont know what to do
im still going to have my weigh in tomorrow morning...but if it gives me different readings im going to hop on my mums scales to see which reading that one gives me and whether it is the same as the other...oh boy those scales better work or ill be well pissed off and march straight into target for a refund .. CUSTOMER SATISFACTION PEOPLE!!!

on the otherhand my eating habits this week (cutting out my cheese options and my crackers) hasnt made me hungry in anyway! initially i thought without the crackers id be starving but i havent even felt like touching them! and considering ill be getting 'time of month' next week i thought id be pulling my hair out and reaching for any food whatsoever!

so yesssss...i think i had something else to say but ive totally lost my train of thought and im off to watch the biggest loser (TOTAL ADDICT) so i guess if i remember ill post later tonight, if not ill be sure to post tomorrow with my weigh in and hopefully a lower ticker!

Happy losing xx

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i should have known i should have KNOWN those scales would be jumpy...
woke up this morning before breakfast, had a pee and prepared for any result that those little scales were going to give me ..

well...i didnt just get three different readings..they were all OVER the joint!
im talking three kilos up then down then up etc etc any way i didnt it i got different readings everytime.HOW FRUSTRATING.and i couldnt use my mums solar powered ones beacause it was still dark damnit. gosh i was so so mad.

so off i toddled into target for a full refund and turns out the lady said that shed had a few people come in with refunds on the same scales! well at least i know it wasnt my paranoia setting in!...on the way to uni i stopped off into kmart and bought some cheapy digital scales, i thought enough is enough! if these scales jump im going to throw them into a KFC window!

considering id had brekkie and heaps of water by the time id gotten home i felt it was no use to do a weigh in today so i will just do it tomorrow!(sorry to those of you who were looking forward to seeing if i lost weight hehe )

but on the plus side mum tried out the scales against hers and they were the same - three same readings each way (my 29.99 compared to her 69.99 scales ) so im assured of a accurate reading tomorrow morning!!

woa what a novel ive written just on some godamn scales! hahaha.anyway hope everyones having an awesome day, ive got work tonight so im going to go for a nanna nap later on (my favourite time of day )

Happy losing everyone xx

okay so ticker update! wow only 500grams in one week thats not much is it!
im getting my TOM this week.could it be because of that?my consultant did say the last bit of fat is always the hardest to shift but jeepers i was averaging a 1.4kilo a week loss before! i guess it all had to start to slow down somewhere damnit oh dr cohens i just want to be finished with you!

ill still weigh in this friday even though ill be on my TOM but meh! want to keep updates so i can look back on this!

oh and so much for me cutting out my cracker allowance! hehe i had saladas today..mmmm not having them for a week really made me appreciate them more haha. i thought i wouldnt be getting munchie feelings this time around on TOM but my bloody hormones think otherwise

My boss bought this new snazzy popcorn machine at work and plans to sell it in little circus paperbag packets (popcorn in a bar me thinks will end up very messy!) so all the girls and glassies and my two bosses was eating all the nice hot salty popcorn last night i felt left out as per usual! its getting so hard when your friends walk up to you with a huge jug of popcorn and your always refusing arrghh and as we were cleaning up the bars at the end of the night one of the other bar girls (skinny little minni) was complaining she had to go on a diet because shed gained 3 kilo (and she was saying all this in between mouthfuls of popcorn!)..

oh and i really seriously cannot wait to get back to the gym! SERIOUS! i miss the gym so much. ive already got my plan worked out for when i go back weight resistance 3 times a week (toning) and cardio 2 times a week (fitness,maybe lose 1 or 2 more kilo off cohens)

today is officially the 4th month (according to calender dates) that i have been on cohens.
4 months without Milk,Rye or Pumpernickel Bread,Vegemite,Doritos,Lindt Mint Intense Chocolate,Mums cooking,Bacardi and Diet Coke,KFC,Nandos Grilled Chicken Tenderloins,Salmon Sushi and Miso Soup from my favourite restaurant,Brie Cheese, Bubble Tea,Broccolli,Peanuts, Pickles,Strawberry Milk,Coke Zero,Stir Fries,Pork.
oh d-d-d-d-d-d-d-deaaarrr

hope everyone is having a beautiful saturday afternoon!

happy losing!
xx

OMMGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i knew there must of been a reason why i was so hungry and unusually irritable last night!!

i thought i would hop on the scales one last time today before my TOM (pretty much spot on comes on tuesdays) and before my weigh in on friday...

well it read....

it read......

IT READ 73.4!!!!!

i dropped like 800 grams overnight!!


this has given me like 180% more determination and motivation to finish cohens

(if you cant tell im pretty excited right now )

xx

Congrats Caroline, it's an awesome feeling when you KNOW you're going to have a huge loss. That's fantastic!

Irene

Yay Caroline....way to go. Not long now, huh! BTW - I love reading your diary. Very inspirational...xxx

Way to go Caroline

I am with you all the way and feel your pain and exhilaration.
Yes those last steps of Cohen's are definitely the hardest and at least we can all empathise with you here and feel for you.

Keep up the fantastic work.

Sam

Thanks isparkle50,Minny + Nans68 for your encouragement its exactly the words i needed to hear this week being the toughest in the month

Minny - ive also been reading your diary you are so descriptive and very feeling your words do touch me and i truly hope that cohens brings love and little footsteps into your life (cohens is a specialist in fertility and we were told SPECIFICALLY in our information session that if we dont want any 'bumps' we should be extremely careful!) i myself am on the contraceptive pill! you will have ups and downs along the way but come online and vent, i find this forum really helpful (as youve probably already noticed!) in dealing with my issues and hopefully i can look back on past posts and see how far ive come!

Nans68 - way to go me>? WAY TO GO YOU!!!! how are you faring on your refeed?! i have been told it is seriously tricky, and am thinking of starting my refeed in my uni holidays (starting the 1st April TWO WEEKS AWAY ) as i have mid term papers and exams the weeks after holidays

AS FOR ME!
well today i woke up bloated which means the start of my TOM angry week hehe.
oh i forgot to include in my previous post that the night i dropped 800g i was dreaming i was in Red Rooster and i was ordering 'Portuegese Skinless Chicken Pieces' - now this is really weird as before cohens if i was in red rooster i would of been ordering hot chips and a flayva...fattening as all hell, and in the dream i was choosing the healthiest options on the menu! HILARIOUS!!
ALSO i dreamt LAST night that i was eating my brekkie yoghurt out of the tub whilst watching a movie...now previously i would of been having icecream or doritos or choccie during a movie...but in my dream it was my margaret river 99.7% fat free yoghurt!!!! ooooh la la maybe this is a sign ?? hehe mind you i am completely in love with my yoghurt i wish cohen gave me my yoghurt option in all three meal plans i would defiantely be a happier kitty!

So before i get real depressed and bloated and PMS all over the place this week i thought i might make a little list of the gifts that Dr Cohen that little special man in my life has given me throughout this journey.

1.The ability to look at food in a healthier perspective
2.The gap between my legs and thighs that seems to be getting bigger by the day (hence no more chafing WOO HOO!)
3.Realisation of my Strength, Patience, Determination and Integrity!!!
4.Diminishing Gut
5.Collar bones,Hip Bones,Bones showing up in places that i never knew existed (and they are sexy not anorexic looking!)
6.More Confidence in Myself / My Body
7.Attention from boys i never thought i would have a chance with
8.The Ability to Plan/Prepare my OWN food (so i can make healthier food choices in the future)
9.No double chin/chubby face
10.NOT BEING A BIG FATTY POOMBAH EVER AGAIN!

i thinks that all for now...hrmm i might update later if i think of something more!

Happy losing everyone xx

Hey fatcat(slim kitty)

I love reading your posts!! I sit here thinking what a character you are and how well u have done CONGRATULAIONS You havent far to go so keep up the great work you truly are inspiring I wish i could keep a diary It would probably help me more if i could, I just find it hard to put it into words (kind of sort of) i have it in my head but i just cant seem to get the words out. Does that make any sense!!
Anyway hope TOM isnt to bad for you, i know that for me I have the hugest craving for chocolate God knows why coz I never really liked it before i started cohens (might have to do with my deviating maybe).

LOSE ON

Char