21..The end of an era, the start of something great...

well i thought i will start my own personal diary on this forum so everyone can get an insight into the ups and down struggles of a regular aussie cohenite

and what a time to start no other then the afternoon of my 21st birthday and the end of week 15 in the cohens program.todays quite significant for me.for the first time in what it seems to be years i dont feel guilty about my body, of course im still not happy where i am and im gagging to get to goal weight and refeed so i can go out and drink with all my girls again (all in good moderation of course!) but i actually woke up this morning, put on my clothes, walked out the door and felt really good about myself/what i was acheiving with myself...that i was no longer spending another birthday OBESE...since i dont get weighed till next friday i think im hovering around the 76kg mark atm (maybe less!!)...which would make me in the official HEALTHY WEIGHT range for my height (im 176)...

I dont even know how i got to the stage i did (heaviest 103.5KG)...well actually maybe i did.. never eating brekkie...eating sh!t for lunch (whatever was handy/convenient)..then a big ole plate of starches and carbs for dinner where the portion sizes could feed a small army of girl scouts...then id probably be hovering around the fridge before bed time and finish off a big plate of whatever was leftover from dinner or the night before NOT TO MENTION the constant grazing of chips coke chocolate snacks etc etc in between.the thing is..why didnt anyone TELL me...i know why my mum didnt, because seeing me eat made her feel accomplished as a traditional polish cook, but why didnt anyone pull me aside and scream JUST LOOK AT WHAT YOUR DOING TO YOURSELF!!YOU LOOK DISGUSTING!!YOU LOOK LIKE FREE WILLYS MOTHER!!
but no one did...of course id have the times where id look at myself in my mirror starkers and wonder whether i should do something, but i had a severe case of 'reverse anorexia' (fatties who are so confident they actually think they look good! ) and it took me so long and to discover i had PCOS before i actually started to give a rats bottom about my health and image.

I dont expect anyone to post in this thread!i dont mind if you do of course but im really only using this place to vent and also so the newbies will be able to see the end of the tunnel, refeed, and life after (i plan to post after im done!)...so, after my 16 week weigh in (Friday - March 9 - 8.45am) i will then go on to weigh myself at home every friday morning thereafter, this is to keep track of when i should start to order refeed.

I have posted a few images also...
-The first one is three pics in one image (1st one taken around october 2006-103.5, 2nd one taken on NYE 2006/07, 3rd on taken last night 28th feb 07)
-The second image has two pics also..it is a virtual model of me at 99.7kg(when i started cohens) and at 65kg (my goal weight)

i will post more photos when ive finally completed cohens

Happy Losing Everyone!!

Caroline x

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Happy 21st Birthday Hot Kitty, the hottie formerly known as Fatcat.I hope you had a wonderful day. Your photos are great. Congratulations on both the day and also on doing a great job on Cohens.
Lauren

Awesome pictures! you're gorgeous - which I think makes it harder to see that you're fat when you still have a very pretty face at that unimaginable weight.

I had to laugh out loud as I've been using that "reverse anorexia" phrase for years! I too would think I looked pretty damned good in some new outfit that I bought in a size 16, therefore everything was ok. But then when I saw pictures of myself from that evening, it was like "whoa - who switched me with the hog in that picture?"

anyway good luck. YOu look great so not sure how much more you want to lose.

Happy 21st Slim Kitty!!!

i Hope You Had A Sensational Day And Night!!!
Your Doing Such A Great Job! Keep Up The Good Work!

Happy 21st birthday!! I must say you are looking awesome!! You are doing a great job. I hope you had a really fantastic night and that the year to come is really eventful, and part of that will be the celebrations when you reach goal weight!! Imagine all this life changing stuff happening inyour 21st year, and in the good luck year of the golden pig... How awesome!! Anyway all the best

Jodee

aww thanks everyone
i was so busy writing about my 'reverse anorexia' LOL that i forgot to post my centimetres lost OOPSIES better do that now..

SO...

On the 17th November 2006 my measurements were...

Bust - 115 cm
Waist - 101 cm
Hips - 121 cm
Thighs - 71 cm
Arms - 32 cm
Weight - 99.7kg

NEW measurements as of 1st March 2006 (15weeks into cohens)

Bust - 102 cm (-13cm)
Waist - 82 cm (-19 cm)
Hips - 100 cm (-21 cm)
Thighs - 58.5 cm (-12.5 cm X 2 = 25 cm)
Arms - 26.5 cm (-5.5 cm X 2 = 11cm)
Weight - (wont know till 9/3/07 -wk 16)

This means in 15 weeks i have lost a total of 89 centimetres from my body where did it go?? BACK TO FAT LAND WOOO!!!!!

GOAL WEIGHT OF 65 KILO HERE I COME!!GO U GOOD THING!!


now i think its high time i get off to sleep!

xx

Happy 21st ^^
Congrats on the weight/cm loss
You look awesome ^^

Happy Belated 21st Birthday Caroline

You look stunning!

Irene

Happy 21st!!! You look fab with the weight loss and I can't to wait to see the pics when you reach your goal weight! Keep on going strong and you'll be super fit and slim in no time! All the best for your special day, enjoy yourself!

Happy Birthday SEXY KITTY

You look fabulous - you should be so proud of yourself.

Without sounding like an old fart - you are almost exactly 15 years younger than me, and I can tell you that you should be thankful that you have got your weight under control as a young person.

I put on my weight after I turned 24 - I had massive hormonal problems and a tendency to do little exercise. As I got bigger ,my care factor went down and so I started to eat more than I should - of course this just made me bigger. I wish that my late 20's had not been overshadowed by my weight.

Having said that I am thankful that I am now happy to have my photo taken with my kids (previously I have only a few photos with them)before they were too old to not have any with their mum. They are 5 and 7 and I am looking forward to weight not being an issue as they grow into teenagers.

FATCAT NO MORE - well done Caroline. Hope you had a fantastic day.

Cheers
Sharon

Just a quick one today as im in the middle of uni assignment and need a break!

I went to a music festival yesterday, it was absolutely fantastic!
i had my lunch at 2pm and we headed into the grounds around 3pm.
it is so interesting to see just how tired one can get without their in between snacks (ie: apple/crackers) and having to wait 7+ hours before they could have dinner...!!

The festival finished at 10pm and i was SO SO tired and lethargic..i had gone 8 hours without an apple...crackers OR my dinner (we couldnt leave the grounds once we were inside and we couldnt bring any food in )! NEVER doing that again! the thing is though, all my other friends we starving (as was i!) at about 7pm so everyone decided to head over to the food stalls to get some grub.

I WAS COMPLETELY DISGUSTED...Hot greasy chips,greasy burgers,candy,donuts and icecream was the ONLY thing on offer...can you believe that?!!?!? no WONDER we are in an obesity epidemic.. and the prices were OUTRAGEOUS..$3 for a little bottle of water come on people!!!

actually sitting and watching my friends eat that crap made me sick, and worst of all was a girlfriend of mine who has serious issues with her weight and always complains about wanting to lose weight - was scoffing down a burger and complaining it could of been better with a few extras..

yesterday was a serious life lesson for me.

On the plus side i had a fan friggen tastic time! and this friday is my 16 week weigh in so ill be able to calculate how many more weeks of cohens ill be on woopee!!

happy losing!
caroline x

Wow hot kitty what can I say you look amazing ! well done!
Thanks for posting. Hope you have a wonderful year may your dreams come true!
Nonna

Hello notsofatcatanymore...

Happy birthday, and your pics are so good. well done. top effort...
talk soon
di

thanks nonna!
and diane yes yes looking forward to keeping up to date hope little madi has been well and letting you have a good nigths sleep

its really hot in perth today, like 40 degrees or something.and i had uni
which was okay cos some lectures were in icy cold air conditioned theatres whilst 'tutorials' were in normal classes with crap fans.

i wore a skirt and a singlet today, all well and good BUT my skirt was still a size 14 (it was an old skirt i had pre obese-ity) and my top was an XL..i really hate those sizes..i just want to start seeing 10's and 12's already...does anyone think i can reach those sizes in 6 weeks? thats when ill hopefully be off cohens!!

i seriously want to be off cohens in 6 weeks,i noticed the other day im beginning to get a bit more complacent and frustrated with this diet...i havent deviated or anything but for example i will weigh out my yoghurt..and if its over by a few grams ill think 'meh its only 2-3 grams what would that do!'..but then i think again and take out the 2-3 grams so its correct,then i get really angry and start calculating if i lost X amount of weight a week how long will it take for me to finish COS I JUST WANT TO FINISH!!!!!then i get scared cos i think 'well what if i DONT lose X amount of weight, then ill be on cohens forever!!!!

oh gosh...sorry for the rant but its only a few days till my weigh in and around this time i always start getting really critical and antsy about everything, and i dont think this weather or the bulking uni assignments are helping either!

oh another reason i want to finish cohens asap...i get light headed on cohens and this really sucks when i have assignments and research, doesnt matter how many vitamins i take etc etc my body just deals with it this way.

hrmmmmmmmmm..

caroline x

Caroline (happy birthday gorgeous one)
You have inspired me on one of those days where I thought one deviation wouldnt hurt but now I'm happy with my water and going to bed .
You have done an amazing job and I hope you dont have to stay on Cohens one minute more than you have too, my consultant told me a girl they had at the clinic thought she would quicken up the process by under weighing everything by 5grams it didnt work as well as her friends who was a similar size so maybe just checking twice may cut down one extra week.
You go Hot Kitty you are doing fabulous
Bee