So its 4 in the morning and I can't sleep. I am completely disgusted with myself, as I found in the past this same situation. Yet I keep resorting back to my old ways and bumming, doing nothing and mopping day after day. I am sick and tired of being the girl with the beautiful face and fat body. I want to the one who sticks out because she is beautiful and not because she is fat. I am determined to loose weight. Not only for myself but for my family.

I am graduating from college in the next year and a half and will be looking for a job. Interviews are the pivotal first impression. What will HR person of a fortune 500 company think when they see the big 285 Laura sitting in front of them? Fat, lazy, unmotivated and not a future employee. Stereotypes don't stop at race....

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 4 years. Any day now I am hoping he is going to pop the question. When I walk down the aisle I want to be stunning, the 285 will completely hinders the thought.

I am just not happy with myself. I want to be comfortable in my own body. Standing, sitting, sleeping, everything. I want a lot. I have lots of goals in life, loosing weight is the hardest one I have had to face. Anything I have put in my head in the past I have done, except this one.

I have to for my own sanity.

This picture is the only one I can bear posting. (Which is now a link because I cant figure out how to post a pic.) I am the one on the right (go figure). I will soon get some before shots loaded on my computer, but I sure wont show them anytime soon. I will admit now I am a pussy with it comes to my weight.
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I hope this board brings inspiration, because I am surely going to need it.

Chapa

Hi,

I aso just joined this group, and you and I seem to be in the same position. I just had a medical problem tacked onto mine. I too am graduating in the next 1.5 years, have a bf who is about to pop the question and am tired of feeling the way I do about myself. I admire your resolve and congradulate you on taking the initiative to, at the very least, join this group and set out on the mission to feel better. I hope we both find tools here to help us accomplish your goals.

Welcome and good luck!

Toodles,

Beth

Well, to tell you the truth I could not take my eyes off your face to see if you are fat or not.
You are really beautiful.

And one more thing. You really didnt seem to be fat. Maybe you just think that you are fat. something to do with your self image maybe.

bye,
faraz

Hi girls,

I want to first honor you for what sounds like some great past successes! (College, boyfriends and a willingness to work toward your goals) When you have a big task ahead of you your mind is filled with the whole big picture of what needs to happen (i.e. I need to lose 50 or 100 lbs) and it seems way too overwhelming. What worked for me was to make a list of all the habits or beliefs I needed to change. I tackled one thing a week. The first week I gave up sugar, the second week I gave up chips, the third week I added 2 fruits, the fourth week I added 4 veggies..... It honestly worked great. It ddidn't seem like a struggle and I finally started losing weight!

Blessings,
Laura

Welcome to the site! You have definately found a great forum that will help you stay focused and motivated. As you look around the site and read peoples diaries you'll definately see that everyone starts out just like you---a little nervous but very determined.

Good luck!

Hello and welcome to the WW forum
First thing let me say congratulations for admiting to yourself you need to change. Losing weight is a hard work, but from my perspective it is the most wonderful thing that is happening to me. When i first joined this forum i was scared, alone, ashamed of myself and my weight. soon enough i realized this is a place where i don't need to hide anymore. noone is judging me for my weight, they're supporting me. the only thing they do tell me is when i do unhealthy things.
so you came to the right place. take it one day at a time. planning is the key. so what you need is a plan. do you have one? if not let me give you some tools you can use, but adjust them to your self and your needs.
first thing open a diary here where you can start tracking yourself, venting or just talk about what ever you need and want, the ups and the downs etc.
then take a look around some other people's diaries. i reccomend you read wishes diary, and click on a link beneath her signature (her website is a huge help to me) and not to mention her as a huge inspiration. also read M2M's diary, Steve's etc. these are people that are extremely helpful and supportive.

next thing also you might want to try FitDay - Free Weight Loss and Diet Journal where you can keep track of your calories

and another thing which comes from my experience. there are reasons we put on weight. think about yours. write about them (only to yourself if you wish). and the biggest advice i can give you is learn how to discipline yourself (take baby steps) and start moving, just walk if nothing else. exercising gives you motivation to go further.

again, welcome and good luck

Lena

Hi Laura
I have to say that you're beautiful. I think you won't have any problem giving a great first impression on any HR personnel. I hope you achieve your goals.
Jasmine

In all honesty, you don't look overweight, but if you feel you need to lose weight then go for it, just don't go overboard Good luck

welcome!! =)

at least you taking a step in the right direction!! you will find the moral support you need here...

for me the best thing to do is go to the gym... i go everyday after i go tanning... i love it even the days i dont wanna go after i go i feel better!!

good luck and keep in touch!

Laura, you are soooooooooooooo beautiful! I know you'll want to pass that compliment off, but it's true!

As for the Fortune 500 company interview thing, I'm 320 pounds and I have a job with a Fortune 500 company, they care about your qualifications, not you're weight... although I definitely know what you are feeling.

I'm just starting my 4th week of this weight loss journey and let me tell you, it's a tough one. My first two weeks were incredible! I couldn't seem to get enough exercise and I was so commited to doing it... there were a few nights that I was so tired I yawned through my work out! Then the third week I was in a major funk and feeling unmotivated and I let things slip... but its not the end of the world. I'm bring myself back up and week 4 is going to be the best one yet!

Have you set specific goals that you want to accomplish? Do you know what your biggest trouble areas are? For example, do you despise exercise? Are you a major sugar addict? Are you a binge eater? The first step is to identify the exact behaviors you want to change. Then I'd say try to discover why you engage in these behaviors, what has made you continue those behaviors, and then finally what is the solution to conquering those behaviors. Behavior change is definitely not a quick and easy process and there might be setbacks along the way. But if you stay focused and committed to your goals, hopefully you always come back to the right path after a detour!

We're all in your corner rooting for you!

Welcome!

Thank you all for your support. I just got home from a wedding and I am headed to work. I am starting first thing in morning. Then working out after work tomorrow afternoon.

Thanks!

Chapa

Hey

You are not alone! There are just so many wonderful people on this forum to help you!

I am also new here but I can see all the inspiring stories that the members are sharing. For me, I am making good progress towards my goal

Don't give up!

For me personally, I find that the only way any diet or exercise can work ( i mean any... ) is really to start looking at yourself inside out first. What I do I mean? You have to start from within, your mindset, your emotions and finally your lifestyle... this is important if you want to maintain a good healthy weight instead of "yo-yo" weight!

Hope this helps!

Luv
Penny

I'm A Pu also so nice to meet ya .
I weigh 174 right now and have never weighed this much before .I'm 43 years old and so down on myself it's un fing real .I began using wo-long tea about a week or so ago and have gone from 179 to 174 .I'm praying to see that 160 mark .That's how I'm going to try to lose this darn fat .not even close to being 116 and everyone being mad at me cause I could eat anything at anytime with no gain ,well that's sure gone now .I'm the fat one hating on the skinny's lol.

Hello There Sweetie and Welcome!

You have come to the right place for inspiration on that long hard road to being thin. If you ever need to talk to anyone I am sure the others feel the same way, you can always pm me and I will always be sure to reply to you. I have to drop 4o lbs. and I already lost two of those nasty little buggers so I feel your pain on wanting to lose weight so desperatly. Hugs to you.... You can do it! PS Your a real hottie don't put yourself down so much hun...