I am just joking! I just really feel like crying. My weight has fluctuated my entire life. I know what it is like to be super skinny and to be fat. I am at my peak weight now and I am seriously low. I am here to seek support, encouragement and advice. Please feel free to message me. I am on AIM a lot if anyone wants to chat. Thanks!

It all starts with your diet. What's it like?

hehehe! I wish it did! I would be one hot chicka if I lost weight every time I cried about it.

Well, I know where the weight came from. I gained 30 lbs when I was with my ex. We drank a ton and when we cooked, it wasnt always healthy.

Since I left the guy, I have not gained any weight, but I also have not lost weight. I am getting stricter about my diet today. For breakfast, I had 4 eggs whites with mushrooms, onion and some spicy chili sauce (no sugar in it). I am currently eating a little bit of chicken breast for a snack. My lunch is going to be a protein shake with a few strawberries blended in. A snack might be cottage cheese with berries. Dinner will be asparagus, another veggie and a protein. I get my fiber from veggies and I have some really whole-wheat tortillas, that have 21 grams of fiber a piece. I think I still need more fiber. I am fine completely cutting out sugar and simple carbs. The one thing I struggle with is the drinking. I am 25, and a lot of my social life involves drinking. I am going to just have to stay away from the night-life for a while. I have hobbies, so it won't be hard.

I am open to any advice or criticism!

Sounds like you know what to do, it's just a matter of doing it. This is the case of most. Weigh your options in your mind, identify your hurdles and figure out ways to get over or around them beforehand and most importantly learn to associate pain to not leading this lifestyle. Far too many people focus on the pain giving up some of the habits they've developed that oppose what they're trying to do. This acute pain is enough to stop many from reaching chronic happiness.

I am self-destructive and I sabotage myself. I am an emotional eater. Once I am done doing that, then I starve myself as a way to punish myself. It is a bad cycle that I have created. All of the years of crash and yo-yo dieting has really messed me up. I just want to be healthy and do things right this time.