hi biggsmartone,
i was so siked when i read your post. i have just jumped back on this lifestyle change of mines. i have 3 sons and i need to be here for them and my husband. i also beat myself up occasionally. sometimes it get soo bad i can't even take a compliment from people, not even my husband. when i look in the mirror all i see is fat. But you know what! i am not that fat! i am a person who can take and maintain control of her life. you inspire me girl! i am telling you keep coming here , to this forum. there are many supporters just waiting for you (any time of the night) when you are down come on in. when you are up come in and lift others. yeah, to the left lets do it. one day at a time.
later Biggs