I need to start writing my thoughts down about my weight, so I thought that this is just as good of a place as any to start! I am tired of being fat. I don't care if people don't think I'm "that" big...or don't want me to call myself fat. That's what I am. I think it makes people uncomfortable when you call yourself fat, because if they DON'T fight you on it, then they look like they agree. I don't know. I just want to be thinner. I want my health to be better, I want to feel more energetic, I want to live longer...all of that stuff...but then, all of the stuff that we're told we SHOULDN'T be doing it for. I want to look better. I want to buy skinny clothes. I want to be one of those girls that guys look at and want, but can't have. I just can't seem to get myself in the mindset to do it. I have so much more to write, but I need to get some sleep. I'll write more tomorrow....maybe after my first walk.