I have decided to lose weight because I feel disgusting. I have been a thin person all my life until about 8 years ago...I cant stand it. I have an extremely attractive boyfriend, and while he always tells me how he loves me and doesnt care about my weight, I still feel like garbage all the time when we go out. I think people are thinking, "why is he with her?" I guess it plays on me mentally and really brings me down. I have teeter tottered with weight and Im pretty sick of it. I need all the help in the world because I love food, Im a restaurant manager, I work over 10 hours a day so all my meals are in the restaurant and free. While I try to eat chicken and salads, sometimes the pasta dishes, or the fish and chips really tackle me to the ground and I devour them like a crack attic in an alley. Whatever...Im here now, so any inspiration would be appreciated

I needed to write something here, so I can come back and read it when i need motivation, which I have been needing a lot of lately. Reasons I want to lose weight:

1) I want to like the way I look and be happy with myself (a lot of days I hate myself, just because of how I look, and I can't live like that anymore).
2) I want to feel confident in the clothes I wear, and not hide in baggy things.
3) I want to be able to wear a bikini (I know this has been mentioned a lot, but I want it too).
4) I want to get compliments on my looks, which will in turn make me feel good.
5) I want to learn how to eat right, and develop a good exercise/diet plan that I can stick with in life.
6) I want to fit in my old clothes, that have gotten just slightly too small, so I won't have to buy new, bigger ones.
7) I really, really want to see some muscle definition, just a little, anywhere, to know I'm in good shape (yes, I know there are other ways to tell)
8) I want to say that I did it. I want to know that I can do it.

Ok, there, I'm sure there are more; I'll add them if I think of them.

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I could post so many reasons here why I want to lose weight.

I could say it's because I'd like to actually find some clothing besides T-shirts and stretchy pants that didn't look like it was made from drapes or a circus tent. But then seeing as how I've been this size this long I don't think thats my motivation, although I will be SO happy when I'm into jeans again. I have a full closet of size 18's and 20's brand new to get into.

But honestly my motivations are these:

I want to be able to get up in the morning and finish my day and have the energy to do it all. Heck, I'd like to just get out of bed not hurting from head to toe.

I'd like to be able to go to a restaurant and not have to worry if I'm going to fit in the booth or not, or going anywhere and not worrying about fitting into a seat for that matter.

I'd like to be able to climb the stairs at my apartment with my arms full and not feel like I'm dying at the top.

I used to go on hiking trips even though I was heavy. Now I worry whether I can make it to the back of the bigger grocery stores without collapsing in pain.

After having a car accident 8 years ago that put me in a wheelchair for a year and knowing I was never supposed to walk again, I'd like to lose enough wait so I can stop being afraid I'm going to end up back in that wheelchair.

And even if none of these reasons were enough, I'd like to get my weight down so my husband and I can have children and I can be a mom before time runs out.

It's no longer just about how I appearance anymore. I walk around every day carrying the weight of two other people on my 5'1 tall body.

I'd like to live my life without worrying, without fear, without pain, without limitations caused by the weight.

I've already missed out on so much, vacations, having a real wedding....I'm determined that I am not going to miss out on one more day of my life.

And honestly if I hit a wall and what I'm doing isn't working I'll change it. If I have a day I screw up and lapse, well it's over and I'll start fresh but I WILL NOT any longer allow one day to turn into a week and then months of "I'll start again tomorrow" that never comes. Looking back I see all the little things I let get in my way and this time it's not going to happen. I'm here for my final weightloss countdown!

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Douknowjello, Thank you for that honesty. I admire your courage. You can do it! How is it going so far?

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It's going great My husband likes the new eating lifestyle and I'm down 20lbs from my highest weight...11 since we started. He's down 18lbs and I'm so excited for him. It's really a relief that he LIKES eating this way...he can be picky at times, lol. Today we talked about starting up with ab workouts 3x a week and cardio...I have a treadmill just sitting there hardly used. Once we get in swing I'm going to either find an at home gym(used probably) or see if he'll join a gym or the YMCA with me so we can do strength training.

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Sounds great. Keep it up. You are motivating me to do my own work. I wish I had a weight-loss partner like you have your husband. I'm sure its a great help to have someone to go through the tough times with you, and to push you to keep going.

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Yea it's the first time I've ever had that. Took me months of asking him to try it without pushing. Then when he said he'd try it I knocked myself out to cook fancy, lol. I'm still cooking variety but now that I know he likes it I'm not so stressed. I still haven't got over it though so I guess that's why I didn't start asking him about the workouts...thinking he'd never do it. Then after talking that alane and alta I was like "I want somebody to work out with!" LOL. But we'll see how long it takes...I'm sure he'll get on board eventually...I'm just gonna have to start the cardio and keep asking.

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1. At a party, I want guys to walk in and be jealous of my boyfriend.
2. I want to feel better, sleep better, and run better!
3. When my friends ask me if i wanna go swimming i dont wanna make up an excuse that i dont swim, instead of admitting i dont even own a swimming suit!
4. I want my boyfriend to stare at me
5. I want to stand next to my model sister, and have confidence!
6. I don't want to have cancer, or one of the many other deadly illnesses that runs in my family
7. I want to go back to high school while i still can
8. I don't want to wear jackets in the summer.

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The city sunset over me

Not being the fat soccer mom!!! We've all seen her.. the ones sitting in the stand with an 84 oz soda screaming cheers at her son who is trying his best to ignore her because the other kids tease him about her. She is sweating like a pig looking so uncomfortable... Ugh the thought just makes me cry.. My son is 2... I have 3 years to get completely in shape to be a healthy example for him!

This is a great thread, I just couldn't resist!

The reasons why I want to loose weight and be healthy
1) To be confident when going out with my girlfriends and not the fat friend anymore
2) To live a long healthy and not have to deal with the risks that come from being overweight.
3) To actually like what I see in the mirror for once! And in stead of thinking ugh Im so fat, to wow I look amazing!
4) To be strong
5) And finally to be a good role model for my kids (when I have some... someday) Coming from a family of obese people it was difficult to have anyone to look up to when it came to being healthy and loosing weight.

And you want to be healthy when you GET PREGNANT!! I have lost 2 babies because my body was not healthy enough to carry them!!! Good reasons though! GOOD LUCK on your journey! And you can be the one to break the mode of bad health habits for generations to come! What power we hold! Finally a chance to prove we really do know more than our parents.. HAHA

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Love the idea of this thread. Dont know why but getting your thoughts out and down really helps.

My reasons for finally being able to stick to a change of lifestyle are endless but the main reason is i was really unhappy been bullied at school since the age of 6 for being Fat. And the bullying has never stopped 13 years later istill get bullied for my size, just because im not stick thin like half the population.

I have attempted diets, drinking water all since the age of 13 to try and loose weight, they would last anything form a day to 3 weeks and that was the end of it. i always wanted to join a gym and could never do it because its just one of them things i couldnt bring myself to do no matter how much i wanted it.

Well on january 20something of this year 2008 my life changed for the better, the new me came out of my shell and decided i am going to change my ways. it took till April to kick in properly, but Jan - april i managed to train myself (sad i know) to drink water as i really dont like it. as of april 15th 2008 i got home from london enetered the ballot for the marathon nxt year, booked loads of races. and 30th april i managed to walk into that gym and have an induction and then go back everyday for two weeks. Then decided that i really anjoyed it and i am now a full member of the leisure center.

January i was 13 st 13. april 30th when i started i was 13,8. Today i am 12 stone.

Really looking forward to having more confidnece and being able to be out there more.

This forum really helps me seeing everybodys success stories, the weight threads to record my daily weight etc.

Pleasure to know all you guyz

p.s ESSAY

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1) I'm a perfectionist
2) I want my friends to be jealous of how I look
3) I've found that life is easier for beautiful people
4) I wanna get a gf

1) I want to be healthier
2) I love seeing peoples reactions when they haven't seen me forever
3) I want a gf (weight loss being part of the overall makeover!)
4) I want to make myself proud.

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Next short-term goal: Maintain weight / 69.9kg

For me, it's a few things..of course, it's the better body, better lifestyle and better health...But here are a few others:

My American Pitbull Terrier, Brogan. I do weightpull with him and swear one of these days I'm going to be able to wear HIM out instead of vise versa (and we're getting another puppy next month...so, I'd better get on it! lol).

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And also being in a bikini when we go back here in January...
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What keeps you on the straight and narrow?

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