Becka- I've decided that the forum isn't the right format for me. I'm going to start a private blog or offline dieting journal since, as I mentioned, issues are coming up as I stay away from junk!

Thank you so much for your support these past few weeks. I will visit your diary still so I won't be gone!

Well, I too will be cutting down my appearance on the forum. No particular reason other than I began to obsess about posting! No other weight loss as of yet but I'm trying my best to be patient. Really long and busy weekend. Exhausted now. Hope everyone is well!

I enjoy reading your posts, but I hear ya on the time. Usually when its nice out and I'm busy outside, I dont have even a second to go online for a few days. But I find it fun and informative when I get the free time.

Heya.. all going well? You keeping on track? xx

Yes, I've been MIA but I have been sticking to this new eating plan and thus far, I feel great. Lack of sleep has increased my hunger but I'm trying to cope with it as best as I can- I'm just so bloody tired! I only did 8/14 days of the first phase of the SBD as my stomach was very ill from lack of fiber and I couldnt take it any longer. Thankfully, two days into the Phase 2 and my stomach feels fabulous. I signed up for the SBD online to build my meal plan- we'll see how it progresses. I'm going to give it to Memorial Day and want to lose AT LEAST a pound a week- we'll see!

Everything else is fine. Really busy. Andrew is wonderful and I've been immersed in 'wedding land' as of late. Working Fri and Sat at the bar so come sunday, i'm going to be knackered! There is supposed to be a band, however, so perhaps I'll actually make decent money! Have a great day everyone!

Lost another pound- yipee! Most of the friends I've made on this seem to be disappearing- where are you guys!!!??

Things are great today. Had a rough few days of arguing w/ my other half and family matters but I'm feeling worlds better today. My fiance sent me this beautiful black dress in the post- that made my day yesterday! I just have to remind myself that an incredibly exciting and bright future lies ahead so I just need to cope and deal with the present until that point. How is everyone today!?

OOH Presents are always nice - very good
that's a great thing to remind yourself of

have yourself a wonderful day

I am here Becka. I've taken to poking around in other threads but not saying much. And at the moment, I have left my cyber diary for an actual notebook to keep track of things. A few weeks ago when I signed up, I thought I was ready but I wasn't. And then I started to panick that I was letting everyone down because I wasn't losing weight, while on the alternative I wasn't losing weight because I was panicked (read: obsessed) about having to give up treats and unfortunately, instead of eating a real lunch, I ate oreos as lunch everyday for a week. Granted I didn't gain weight and I finally felt satiated. But I felt bloated and like I was all backed up.

But yes, I am here and I make a point of it at least every other day to read up on your diary. I'm glad things are going. I'm glad that you can see how starting the next chapter of your life is going to be scary (with moving out of the states and all) yet the pros of the situation are so much more rewarding, fulfilling and happy. Sometimes when you're changing yourself (be it a weightloss, career change, etc) it's good to also have a scenary change. Less likely to have triggers of old habbits.

And aren't men wonderful? I had an amazing weekend with my boy and on Monday I almost started a "people appreciation" thread because I felt like screaming from the rooftops how amazing my boyfriend is and I wanted other ppl to either appreciate themselves in the thread or appreciate someone who means so much to them. But I held myself back because I didn't want to seem dorky... anyway, have a wonderful weekend if I don't get to talk to you.

xoxo!

Heya love,

Don't hold back! Exhibiting appreciation for those in your life is oen of the most liberating self=esteem boosters there is! I too have the most incredible man in the world and I tend to shout it to the hills on an hourly basis- I'm so happy you're happy- great relationships are a rareity these days!

As far as the eating, I don't need to tell you that having oreos for lunch is not the healthiest alternative, despite the absence of weight gain. It's all that sugar! Not to mention, that's clear cut sign of bingeing, which, in my opinion, often culminates into something far more serious. If its three/four oreos and you really enjoy it, that's obviously fine- but a half of a box and eating until you feel ill? Not the best for your mental health [or physical for that matter]. Look, as you know, im "in recovery from my eating disorder and its been a very long journey thus far. Therapy didnt work out as I had planned [my therpist is an egotistical, arrogant prick who I loathe] and I've relapsed many times so far. But i've kept going and every time I've given in to temptation and eaten those 10 cookies, I've awoke the next morning feeling disgusting but motivated to ensure that this cycle comes to a stop someday. I know that offering you any source of cliche advice would be futile so I'll simply say that I'm here to talk should you ever need someone to evaluate, validate or make sense of your thoughts/eating/what have you- i'll message you my email.

AS for me, busy week this week and an even longer weekend ahead. Feeling crampy and bloated but its TOM AGAIN so I'm trying not to thinkabout it! Time to get to work- have a good day everyone!

Well, there is a great reason I've been so absent as of late- I've been doing horribly with my diet and binging, etc. So, rather than wait another day, I signed up for LA yesterday to eradicate and put a stop to this vicious cycle. All the way down 16 pounds and then i just blew it for a week and ate like a bloody gorilla. I hate fad diets but what I have always liked about LA is that I feel obligated to remain faithful to my eating plan b/c i know i will have someone else viewing my weight a few times a week. Hopefully, this will be the push I need to get things back on track. I hate feeling this way. I feel so gross, even though i can finally fit into my designer skinny jeans [hip hip hooray!]. I'm not going to adjust my weight loss ticker until tomorrow as when I weighed in yesterday it was almost directly after a big binge, so, naturally, my weight was way up. I want to do this right!

Onto other matters, to coincide, or perhaps explain this eating behavior, the past two weeks have been hell. My dad and i werent speaking; my best friend and i were fighting; work cancelled my big fundraiser that I had invested the last 5 months of my life in due to financial reasons. And thats only the beginning. So, i'm ready for a fresh start to a new week on Sunday.

Bartending tonight and tomorrow, which normally elevates my mood thanks to my incredibly entertaining regulars and other clientele. It's only 9:30 but it feels like i have been at work for days- so ready to get out- I miss talking to all of you- Hope everyone is well and to hear from you soon xo

I am 24 and I have also suffered from binge eating disorder. Its time to take our lives back girl! Lets do it together. Because, as much as it may be hard to believe, I know exactly what you're going through. I too know all sorts of diet and exercise information, but I too have yet to finally kick my compulsive eating habit for good. My biggest challenge is when I am alone at night watching television. This year I have ballooned to 161 lbs. and I'm only 5'4" at most, maybe 5'3.5" but anyways you get the point. I finished my B.A. and moved to a different city, a big city and I got a job working at a school teaching a child with autism. It's been a lonely year, since I work with a lot of people that are older than me and in different stages of their lives. The people I can hang out with also have their own lives so it's been hard. Anyway, my binging came back due to feelings of isolation and loneliness. Then the binging only intensified those feelings and the vicious cycle continued. A cycle I am sure you are familiar with. Anyways, to make a long story short, I think we could be very helpful to eachother. Look forward to hearing from you. By the way, do you know how to post that weight loss chart thing? I went to ticker.com or whatever it is and created one but I don't know how to get it onto my profile. Any ideas?
Be strong in the moments when every ounce of your being wants to give up. Hold on!

Hey Melissa,

Thanks for your kind words and support- most of my friends I have met on this website seem to have either left or become MIA over the past few weeks so its nice to have someone to correspond with! My eating habits seem to parellel yours, in that i'll go all day eating really healthy and then suddenly decide that I need food- lots of it and quite readily. And there you have it- the cycle begins. I've "started fresh" three million times and sworn to myself that I wouldnt let the 'demons in my head' get the better of me but realistically speaking, I have an eating disorder- a disease- an addiction and kicking it just isnt as easy as I would like it to be or as others think it Should be. So, I'm just taking it day by day- its all we can do really. Keep the faith.

Anyhow, I'd love to keep in touch with you-perhaps it will keep us both in line! Once you create yourw eight loss ticker, there should be a few 'url' codes, copy the first URL code, go into your 'usercp' on this website and 'edit signature'- paste it into the box. That should do it- Have a great day and thanks for contacting me! x

Hello!!! I just want to say you're doing so good. Way to get some control. I binged myself for way too long and gained too much weight. You're lucky you got control early, meaning you didn't get over 200lbs like I did. I admire you for admitting it and seeking help. You go girl!!

Thanks lady! Don't worry- I did get up to 178 at one point- In fact, in sept i was 176 and now i'm 161 with my weight yoyoing for months now. You'll reach your goal- don't worry!

Ok Day Five of LA weight loss. Doing well thus far. Lost 4 needed pounds on the express part, although I'm still a pound heavier than I was 2 weeks ago. At least I feel 100 times better and I'm receiving loads of compliments..

I took some of my summer clothes out of storage and tried them on- they're so loose compared to last summer when my bingeing/purging was peaking and I was stressed to the max over my Masters dissertation. It's amazing what being happy can do for you

So my goal weight is 150- not to far away I don't think. Although, 145 sounds better but I'm just not certain that this body can maintain that low of a weight as my body fat percentage at present is just below 20% [I had one of the professional body fat scales performed at my fitness center by a practitioner]. After another 13-15 pounds drop, I'm sure it'll decrease further [ideally]. Andrew is begging me not to lose too much as he doesnt like rail thin women, not that I think i would EVER reach that point- my body is far too muscular! I've already gone down a size in the bust [doesnt that always go first damnit!] and a few inches from my thighs and waist. It's my love handles that are my biggest hang-up. But I just have to be patient [if you hadnt noticed, i'm feeling far more optimistic than usual!].

So the sun is shining and I have the feeling its going to be a great day. I saw shrek the third last night- it was quite funny but not comparable to the previous films. Out for Daddy's birthday tonight- must not eat dessert! Have fab day everyone!