I think i'm in a rut. I'm so busy and am having some scaryish health problems and so I either havn't had time to work out..or just haven't physically been able to. Lately I just feel blaaah..i weighed myself the other day and i was at 133..so about the same..but i'm ready to lose some more. I still want soooo badly for my jeans to be looser

wow I haven't been on here in forever. I had some health issues to deal with, then school and work and clinicals, then my computer broke, and i'm trying to plan my wedding.....so things have been kind of crazy. My parents moved in October and me and my fiance ended up buying their old house..so I don't have a scale anymore as the one i was using was my moms. So I have no clue what i weight...I think still around 132. I really need a kick in the butt because I just realized that my wedding is in 5 months and I wanna have a hot bod for that and the honeymoon (we're going on a cruise!). My appetite has been kinda weird lately and i know i'm not getting proper nutrition at all. I get uncomfortably full eating a regular sized meal and it makes me feel sick..so i've been trying to eat little snacks throughout the day vs normal meals. I'm gonna try and post what i eat everyday to try and keep on track. As for working out...I've been going in spurts. I hate treadmills and I get bored on bikes/ellipticals, and we've had a shit ton of snow recently so running has been sporadic. I do however continue with my 8 minute abs and some work with freeweights. I do tae bo sometimes as well but i get sick of watching the same old tape over and over. ok food time..

breakfast: it was 4:30 AM and not healthy food at all... 12 oz fat free french vanilla cappuccino and raspberry pastry

Cinnamon Rasin Bagel at noon

some dry roasted peanuts around 1

will probably have an apple and popcorn for dinner

and i usually drink a lot of water, but for some reason today i've been drinkin extra. I also remembered to take my vitamins! (i'm horrible at that)

so my little ticker thing went away i just noticed..i think i started at 142 with a goal of 128...although 128 sounds nice, i reeeeeeeallly would like 123. so that's my new goal!

So I ate what I said I would last night I also worked out yesterday and will do the same today. I'm insanely tired today which sucks..and I have to work baseball practice until about 12:30AM tonight. uggggggh. Ok so here's what I've ate today and plan on eating for dinner...

Breakfast: Fake Apple Cinnamon Cherrios
Lunch: PB & J, yogurt
Plan on eating a snack of some pretzels later, dinner of Fish and veggies with potato, and possibly another snack while i'm at practice and a mt dew for energy. Not great stuff but not too bad either.

Yup I suck at writing in this thing consistently. So yesterday I was kind of sick and was really hot so I put on these skimpy little sweatpant-material shorts. I was afraid to look in the mirror but was actually kind of pleasantly surprised when my legs didn't totally gross me out! My hips/thighs/butt is what bothers me most. I have pretty muscular legs but my inner thighs just aren't workin for me. I also have some cellulite on my butt and hamstring area and it makes me soo mad! I measured the largest part of my thigh and got 22 inches...I don't even know if that is big or not for my height (5'5) I run or do elliptical pretty often. What makes me mad is that I know my legs are strong (I used to squat 365lbs), but i have this stupid cellulite!! I don't really eat much fat on a regular basis. hmmm. I wish I could lose some weight in my boobs..uggh! So anyway I guess my point to this post is that my thighs bother me, but I was kind of surprised yesterday that they seem to be looking better


I'm adding on to this post...I went on a cruise about 2.5 years ago..that's when I was in the best shape of my life and it happened totally unintentionally! I was on vacation for over 2 weeks and ate out every meal..plus you know how cruise food is..well I didn't gain anything!! I'm going on another cruise this July for my honeymoon and I'm praying for a repeat situation! Although this weight loss isn't totally unintentional like last time, i'm determined to once again be in the best shape of my life!